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ugh. my life is a huge mess. i am on brink of so many changed..career..maybe a living situation.....who knows,..even my relationship. i love chris and i love being with him. he isn't sexual or romantic at all..but he cares for my well being and it shows. and when i am with him i feel at peace and relaxed..but when i am not i feel lonely, depressed, and just miserable. he wont move in with me, for many different reasons, and it just sucks. i am so sick of living with roomates. i am ready to move on to having my OWN apartment with my own things...and when things get messy or broken i have no one to blame but myself..but i cant afford to live on my own...i want to live in an enviroment where i dont feel unwelcomed. thats how i feel here. my roomate makes me feel like i should be out of the house, so she can be with ehr fucking bf alone. fuck off you damn cunt.grr i am mad at her.
and sad about my bf.
and sad i have to leave teaching..but i must...i need to earn more money...i am sure gonan miss those kids..next week is going to be an emotional period for me...good thing theres a wedding with alcohol so i can drink away those thoughts. i have not been drunk in a wicked long time, by the way..prob since the summer...
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and sad about my bf.
and sad i have to leave teaching..but i must...i need to earn more money...i am sure gonan miss those kids..next week is going to be an emotional period for me...good thing theres a wedding with alcohol so i can drink away those thoughts. i have not been drunk in a wicked long time, by the way..prob since the summer...
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