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[dysfunctioned]

i am glad that i made the decision that i made...it was a long time ago and felt right..things just needed to be done. i had more to see..but now i know that i miss you and your company...and i know that i messed things up too much.. that you will most likely never forgive me..but if you gave me the chance i would really like to start again..fresh..as friends..ya know??..but i am soo used to things never working out that way for me..no one ever wants to start again when it comes to that kind of stuff..but this is one situation where i am here with open arms and would love to start again..in a different way...no rushing things...no more goodbyes..

but then again..i am just a wishful thinker...