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i wish i were able to sleep right now.. just because i know i'll be dead tomorrow.. nothing new
why does life all of a sudden seem so serious to me.. i hope i can keep this attitude throughout the school year..
and i'm starting to feel scared again.. about something i really don't know whether or not i should try to ignore until it happens.. in most cases this wouldn't be wise but i think it'd be better if i did.. if someone could answer what life is all about for me then this wouldn't be such a predicament.. every minute passing leads to, for me, another bad thing that will happen.. what a way to live.. happiness only becomes a memory and the unfortunate things are what change my life.. i know what will make my life worth these minutes though.. so why isn't without a doubt something i should go after.. because i'm afraid of having control over my life.. i'm afraid of changing for my own good.. i'm afraid of making a decision for myself.. i don't know why i'm afraid i just am.. maybe it's immaturity.. maybe i'll have grown up once i decide upon this..
but does life care what i think? hell no
i don't think you do either
why does life all of a sudden seem so serious to me.. i hope i can keep this attitude throughout the school year..
and i'm starting to feel scared again.. about something i really don't know whether or not i should try to ignore until it happens.. in most cases this wouldn't be wise but i think it'd be better if i did.. if someone could answer what life is all about for me then this wouldn't be such a predicament.. every minute passing leads to, for me, another bad thing that will happen.. what a way to live.. happiness only becomes a memory and the unfortunate things are what change my life.. i know what will make my life worth these minutes though.. so why isn't without a doubt something i should go after.. because i'm afraid of having control over my life.. i'm afraid of changing for my own good.. i'm afraid of making a decision for myself.. i don't know why i'm afraid i just am.. maybe it's immaturity.. maybe i'll have grown up once i decide upon this..
but does life care what i think? hell no
i don't think you do either