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I need her, more than ever right now. I need her kind, encouraging words, her contagious radiance, her outright laughter. It has been too long since our last meeting, and it was brief and crowded, at that.
I am glad of those close to me. I have stepped off the curb, at times. Sometimes with them. But we knew when we had stepped too far, and we carefully made our way back to the safehaven that is this concrete path. I cannot see the end of it, nor can I any longer view the beginning. But I am certain that it is my stronghold, and that I will stay the course, even though I occassionally wander. I am not saying that all strayings are for the best. But every time that I return to my solid walk, I have gained new knowledge that helps me on this journey.
In short, yes I have made mistakes. I did something once that I am not exactly proud of. But I am not the irresponsible little slut that some would make me out to be. Had I had any doubt in my mind that anything compromising would have occurred in that situation, I would not have subjected myself to it. I knew every single person there; in fact, I am closer to every single one of them than I am to any of the people leaving these comments on my journal. For the most part, I know what I'm doing. I do not claim to be perfect, or to have everything figured out. But I am not blind.
Please, I refrain from throwing horrible truths in people's faces on a daily basis. Pay me the same courtesy. Just leave me be.
I am glad of those close to me. I have stepped off the curb, at times. Sometimes with them. But we knew when we had stepped too far, and we carefully made our way back to the safehaven that is this concrete path. I cannot see the end of it, nor can I any longer view the beginning. But I am certain that it is my stronghold, and that I will stay the course, even though I occassionally wander. I am not saying that all strayings are for the best. But every time that I return to my solid walk, I have gained new knowledge that helps me on this journey.
In short, yes I have made mistakes. I did something once that I am not exactly proud of. But I am not the irresponsible little slut that some would make me out to be. Had I had any doubt in my mind that anything compromising would have occurred in that situation, I would not have subjected myself to it. I knew every single person there; in fact, I am closer to every single one of them than I am to any of the people leaving these comments on my journal. For the most part, I know what I'm doing. I do not claim to be perfect, or to have everything figured out. But I am not blind.
Please, I refrain from throwing horrible truths in people's faces on a daily basis. Pay me the same courtesy. Just leave me be.