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i thought of her today among a myriad of unhappy moments. feeling neglected, tossed aside. i know 'tis my own doing, but this feeling persists nonetheless. i struggle through, and distance myself from those i know have the greatest ability to shatter me. [sub]consciously building walls, churning cement. cement layered upon these bricks as i constantly wonder -is this the right path?- but a castle built for one leaves no empty space for loneliness, and so its construction continues. i'll finish with a surrounding moat, my isolation complete. then i'll curl up with a good book and while away my time.
oh, blue star. how i wish i were as beautiful and strong as you. you are inspiring. the flame, as i dance in you and slowly burn away my past. i want to forget who i was prior to our meeting, for shame. i slowly plod on in these days sent from hell and smile inwardly at the tiny blue light shining within me. i know i am not the only person anxiously [for better or for worse] awaiting this weekend.
none can hurt me here.
oh, blue star. how i wish i were as beautiful and strong as you. you are inspiring. the flame, as i dance in you and slowly burn away my past. i want to forget who i was prior to our meeting, for shame. i slowly plod on in these days sent from hell and smile inwardly at the tiny blue light shining within me. i know i am not the only person anxiously [for better or for worse] awaiting this weekend.
none can hurt me here.