Lessons Re-Learned
So last night was nothing short of a glimpse of the past. In fact I felt like I was living in the past for a brief period of time. Trust me, this wasn't a good memory to live through. Last night I went out to eat with Josh and a friend of ours, Jenny. Well the whole time they were ragging on me and in the beginning I went along with it simply because it was all in the spirit of fun. But then an hour and a half went by and they were still making fun of me so I started to get really annoyed. Which I might add is pretty good restraint on my part, the old me would've snapped a lot quicker! Lol. Any ways I just started to tune them out and focus in on these other peoples conversation to keep from dealing with the situation the way I wanted too ;). So we leave the restaurant and they leave me alone and get back to Josh's dorm and everything is going good. We're all getting along again and every thing's peachy. Well then Josh gets this call saying there is this party at his friends house and to come and so he invites me and his other friends from Cambridge and we're all set to go. But then at the last minute his roommate nick pulls out of going with us and goes to another party. No big deal right? WRONG! That's what fueled the next chain of events. Then after that in walks this kid Ben who Nick is friends with and says he's ready to go to the party. Well Josh doesn't really know the kid and didn't invite him and the likely person who did invite him is no longer going. Any ways we finally leave and Josh is pissed because Nick backed out at the last minute and that kid Ben tagged along and brought two of his friends. So the car ride over there Josh is just griping and griping about Nick and the whole situation and finally I speak up and say just calm down you're gonna give yourself gray hairs. Hahaha. I thought it was somewhat funny well he turned around and said JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP AND DON'T TALK ANYMORE! Ok well those of you who know me know that in that very moment argument time is upon us. Well I stopped myself and bit my tongue. I sat there and didn't make one sound. We get to the house and Josh slams his door and doesn't even think to wait on the rest of us who rode with him. I walk in and he just goes "Oh this is my friend Dylan." What am I chopped liver? Any ways so I sit down and try and mingle but I'm just too mad to put on a friendly face so I pull out my phone and call Megan and tell her all that had happened last night and have her come and pick me up. I think she was more angry than I was by what Josh said between dinner and the outburst in his truck. So I ignored his calls all night and all day and finally responded to his text today around 3 because I knew at some point the situation had to be addressed. He acted like nothing had happened and that further irritated me. He later asked why I was mad after I made the remark "Let me guess everyone's mad at you." when he mentioned he had something funny to tell me. I told him this; "If I wanted to be talked down to I'd go befriend david laporte again." At that point he quickly responded with a long apology and I suppose everything is ok now but like with any fight with any person it takes time to get back into the swing of things. You can definitely tell he feels out of place and really bad for what he did. I dunno we'll see, I'm not backing down on the promise I made to myself which was I'd never let someone belittle me and walk all over me ever again after what happened throughout the course of my friendship with david. I quite frankly don't care who you are. My integrity is far more important to me than any one friendship.