Variety Is Just Better
I'm so glad 2007 is over! Ok maybe not, a lot of bad happened in '07 but there was some good too. I'm just glad that it's all in the past and I can move forward with some steadfastness. But here's something of a f.y.i. About a few months ago I began to feel bad for ending my friendship with david. I began asking people for their input and everything. But thats beside the point, the point is I prayed for a sign that I made the right decision. Yes, I said prayed. Any ways about two days ago I got my sign or I'll let you decide for yourself on this. Two days ago I was hanging out with michelle and she mentioned david and relayed something he said about me to me. You see, he claims that he was under my influence and thats why he was so rude to michelle. That is my sign I prayed for. You see, a major factor that always had me pissed at him was that he never could own his actions, he always blamed the way he acted on someone else. And the three years we were friends I was the convenient scape goat. If anything, I was under his influence seeing as how I'm the who lost more being friends with him than gained. But that just goes to show in the 9 months we haven't talked, he hasn't changed a bit. He's still the same bitter person he's always been. So I now can say I made the right decision. I think I simply forgot that its never easy losing anyone, especially those you let your guard down for. Yep, I think after racking my brain for the past several months I have finally figured out this whole mess and in just in time for the new year! I may even pat myself on the back now. lol.
College so far has been a real growing experience. It really has. I've definitely become more open minded and definitely not as judgmental as I was in high school. In fact I feel bad for the way I treated some people. I was a prick. But I guess it's good I picked up on this before it was too late?
College has also given me back my self confidence. The problem with relying solely on someone is that when they leave your self-motivation crumbles and you can forget about confidence. lol. But being off and having to make new friends and taking care of myself has really built my confidence back up and I love it! I actually doing laundry, well only if I get to do it at 2 AM and get to listen to my ipod. lol. Yeah, I know, I'm weird. But college is amazing. And I can't wait till next fall when I get to move to L.A.! I've also learned that waiting on following your dreams is ok. As long as you have every intention on following through with that dream. Thats what I was afraid of happening, waiting a year causing me to change my mind on the whole california thing. But actually if it did anything was make me wanna go even more. And now I'm especially prepared, I know how to take care of myself and I've got a year of school under my belt.
Oh yeah and I almost forgot what else comes coupled with college, FREEDOM! You can pretty much do anything in college. Well anything legal. lol. It seems like everyone that was over-protective through your high school years loosens up and gives you some breathing room. For instance if I were in high school my mom wouldn't let me fly out to another state on my own to visit a friend. But now I'm in college and it's a given I need to be able to do this. I love that about college. Trips that never would've been allowed in the past all of a sudden become a given must.
I can't hlp but notice as I'm writing this that my tone in this post is very chipper. Which is a nice change of pace given my past posts. lol.
I dunno what this time off has done for me but whatever it was, I just feel better. Me and michelle have gotten to hang out a lot more this break and thats been really nice, I miss hanging out with her. I really wish she'd consider coming to Cali with me, I think it would be fun! Its also been a blast getting to hang out with nat!!! But I think that this milky way drink I'm drinking is what is making me especially chipper. HAHAHA. J/k! But it is good though. I actually like this coffeehouse, starbucks is just so commercialized and you come into mod coffeehouse and its just a real mellow atmosphere. Its really nice.
Maybe I should make more posts while I'm out-n-bout. Because this has been one of the longest posts I've ever made and I actually enjoy writing this post unlike the others. I think thats what I'm going to do is make more posts while I'm out in public. Well where they have wi-fi access of course. Alright clearly I'm running out of things to say so I'm gonna sign off.
Later
College so far has been a real growing experience. It really has. I've definitely become more open minded and definitely not as judgmental as I was in high school. In fact I feel bad for the way I treated some people. I was a prick. But I guess it's good I picked up on this before it was too late?
College has also given me back my self confidence. The problem with relying solely on someone is that when they leave your self-motivation crumbles and you can forget about confidence. lol. But being off and having to make new friends and taking care of myself has really built my confidence back up and I love it! I actually doing laundry, well only if I get to do it at 2 AM and get to listen to my ipod. lol. Yeah, I know, I'm weird. But college is amazing. And I can't wait till next fall when I get to move to L.A.! I've also learned that waiting on following your dreams is ok. As long as you have every intention on following through with that dream. Thats what I was afraid of happening, waiting a year causing me to change my mind on the whole california thing. But actually if it did anything was make me wanna go even more. And now I'm especially prepared, I know how to take care of myself and I've got a year of school under my belt.
Oh yeah and I almost forgot what else comes coupled with college, FREEDOM! You can pretty much do anything in college. Well anything legal. lol. It seems like everyone that was over-protective through your high school years loosens up and gives you some breathing room. For instance if I were in high school my mom wouldn't let me fly out to another state on my own to visit a friend. But now I'm in college and it's a given I need to be able to do this. I love that about college. Trips that never would've been allowed in the past all of a sudden become a given must.
I can't hlp but notice as I'm writing this that my tone in this post is very chipper. Which is a nice change of pace given my past posts. lol.
I dunno what this time off has done for me but whatever it was, I just feel better. Me and michelle have gotten to hang out a lot more this break and thats been really nice, I miss hanging out with her. I really wish she'd consider coming to Cali with me, I think it would be fun! Its also been a blast getting to hang out with nat!!! But I think that this milky way drink I'm drinking is what is making me especially chipper. HAHAHA. J/k! But it is good though. I actually like this coffeehouse, starbucks is just so commercialized and you come into mod coffeehouse and its just a real mellow atmosphere. Its really nice.
Maybe I should make more posts while I'm out-n-bout. Because this has been one of the longest posts I've ever made and I actually enjoy writing this post unlike the others. I think thats what I'm going to do is make more posts while I'm out in public. Well where they have wi-fi access of course. Alright clearly I'm running out of things to say so I'm gonna sign off.
Later