a [add]VERY LONG[/add] thought. =D
ytd, i was having my own personal time at macs having breakfast and when i was ordering food, i suddenly heard some woman calling 'dylan' loudly. so i looked to check who it was and was wondering how she knew me. then it turned out to be that she was calling her like kindergarten son. (who of course had the same name as me) LOL.
maybe its cos my name is still relatively uncommon (although its getting more common now). but it kinda felt abit weirdd.. to think that my name refers to someone else to another person.
(i realize ongnardo will nv have this problem LOL!)
then i thought back on those times when my parents brought me to that very same macs (im referring to braddell macs here.) to have breakfast. and i was running aroundd being naughty and my parents had to shout for me to come backk.
but now that macs brings new memories. i rmb watching world cup there. i rmb the mugging sessions. i rmb the times after school when we went there.
and it led me to wonder whether or not. in say a decade from now, whether that boy will be at the same macs living my life. eating macs before school. mugging there. watching the 2018 world cup (in which singapore will still not qualify. LOL)
for all u know, maybe 10 years ago, when my parents called for me to stop running about at braddell macs, someone else with my name who had came to eat breakfast before his maths common test 1 too overheard it and thought that my parents were referring to him?
but then again, maybe the woman yesterday was ACTUALLY referring to me, ie, the 'me' ten years ago. =) which leads me to think :
are we really that different? 10 years ago, i went to the coffeeshops in the morning with my parents and the patrons there were mainly old men. today, i went to eat at the coffeeshop again. and the majority were still old men. and 10 years from now, itll still be old men.
the point is. who the young men and who the old men are change. but their roles and their experiences hardly differ. the 4th dimension. time. its perhaps the only component we cant change. yes we can move left right up down, but we move faster or slower in time.
sigh. it just happens to me alot. when someone is sharing an experience with me and then i ask myself, 'havent i gone through this before?' and then if the person asks me what he/she should do, ill always think 'what would i have done if i could go back to that point in my life?'
and then, there are ppl who angst and say 'i just flunked my tests. im gonna get owned by my parents. u dunno how i feel.' Sometimes i just think to myself 'i dunno how u feel? really?'
do u really think i have always been where i am now? OF COURSE i had to go through some things. we all started with 0 experience and then theres a process of GETTING THERE (like a direction vector. LOL. sorry couldnt help it. im still thinking abt maths)
but of course, the path of life is mroe than just a single direction. theres elements of choice. but come on. we're all living in a similar environment in singapore can ours experiences really differ by THAT much? for most of us, (thus far), its school, exams, problems with schoolwork, problems with teachers, with friends, with parents, with expectations, with friendships, with relationships, with self-esteem... blablabla. there definitely ARE a LARGE number of similarities.
sometimes, things happen so predictably. it really makes the line 'HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF' make even more sense. personally, ive come to my own conclusion and i know some ppl might disagree. but i think that EVERYONE IS EVERYONE ELSE AT SOME POINT IN TIME.
i could have looked in the mirror 10 years ago and seen the little boy i saw at macs yesterday. so who has MY reflection in their mirror TODAY?
=)
dylan