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(This is gonna be a post of what is constantly cycling through my brain. And you'll see why it's a cycle)
Seems I only post here when I feel like crap. Same old crap too. Contemplating the whole college thing. Right now I'm learning a marimba piece called Mexican Dances that everyone plays. I hate playing anything that everyone knows already. Cause then it's not music for music's sake. It's just for everyone to be able to review my skill level. I pretty much hate doing anything that everyone else is doing. It's why I started being a percussionist, cause very few people play percussion. Then in high school I loved quads, cause nobody else played them. Now that I'm in college, there are 40 other people who play everything I do, better than I do. So my solace is to teach at a high school where people are like "Oooooh" when you play something cool. And that's the only time I'm really alive. Thus, the conclusion is to go into teaching.
New paragraph. I love teaching music. It's the only thing I really know anything about. Teaching the percussion section at NoHo is probably one of the most fun things to do for me. But as drum instructor, I'm the cool uncle. The kids are the kids. The band directors are the parents. As uncle, I get to drop by every so often, give a few high fives, and teach them a little something for the week. As a parent, I wouldn't be given such freedom. I'd have to "tough love" the kids and yell at them and stuff, which isn't fun. Plus, the requirements to be a teacher are pretty numerous. Like learning every instrument and doing child psychology stuff. So music ed isn't really a good option for me. Music composition seems cool though.
New paragraph. I like composing in my free time. Haven't had a whole lot of time to do it though. The requirements for comp majors are like double that of music ed. And the main teacher guy is "the music theory evil incarnate" according to ratemyprofessors.com and many other students here. And you have to learn the highest of music theory and electronic music and technology and everything. Which I might not mind doing. But seriously, I have like no connections to sell the kind of music I write, so I don't really see a future in it. Maybe if I could arrange more songs for my dad's band. What would help my compositional skills and music ed skills would be music performance.
New paragraph. So now I'm back to music performance. Probably the best choice for me for now cause it's like...a middle ground that I can stick with before I fully decide. I'd like to perform with some big group, or even a small group, but I just don't see that happening. Again with the no connections really. Except for a few students here. Which I'd love to do, but no one seems to have time (and frankly I don't have much).
So...now what? Not music history, cause vomit. Considered joining a drum corps, but I don't think I really have the stamina/money to do it. Professionally teaching percussion would probably require that. Annnnnnd. Music librarian? No. Requires music history stuff. Music copyist? Maybe. Doesn't seem like a too stable job though.
This winter I'm gonna try something different. I'm going to invent my own percussion instruments. I already have some ideas and sketches. I figure if I regain my uniqueness in musical instruments, I might regain some passion for music in general. That way I can write my own music and play it on my own instruments. And I'll be the best at it cause no one else will have done it. Like Tony Hawk. Skateboard innovator. Okay skateboarder.
And there's my brain. In a nutshell. Or a skull.
Seems I only post here when I feel like crap. Same old crap too. Contemplating the whole college thing. Right now I'm learning a marimba piece called Mexican Dances that everyone plays. I hate playing anything that everyone knows already. Cause then it's not music for music's sake. It's just for everyone to be able to review my skill level. I pretty much hate doing anything that everyone else is doing. It's why I started being a percussionist, cause very few people play percussion. Then in high school I loved quads, cause nobody else played them. Now that I'm in college, there are 40 other people who play everything I do, better than I do. So my solace is to teach at a high school where people are like "Oooooh" when you play something cool. And that's the only time I'm really alive. Thus, the conclusion is to go into teaching.
New paragraph. I love teaching music. It's the only thing I really know anything about. Teaching the percussion section at NoHo is probably one of the most fun things to do for me. But as drum instructor, I'm the cool uncle. The kids are the kids. The band directors are the parents. As uncle, I get to drop by every so often, give a few high fives, and teach them a little something for the week. As a parent, I wouldn't be given such freedom. I'd have to "tough love" the kids and yell at them and stuff, which isn't fun. Plus, the requirements to be a teacher are pretty numerous. Like learning every instrument and doing child psychology stuff. So music ed isn't really a good option for me. Music composition seems cool though.
New paragraph. I like composing in my free time. Haven't had a whole lot of time to do it though. The requirements for comp majors are like double that of music ed. And the main teacher guy is "the music theory evil incarnate" according to ratemyprofessors.com and many other students here. And you have to learn the highest of music theory and electronic music and technology and everything. Which I might not mind doing. But seriously, I have like no connections to sell the kind of music I write, so I don't really see a future in it. Maybe if I could arrange more songs for my dad's band. What would help my compositional skills and music ed skills would be music performance.
New paragraph. So now I'm back to music performance. Probably the best choice for me for now cause it's like...a middle ground that I can stick with before I fully decide. I'd like to perform with some big group, or even a small group, but I just don't see that happening. Again with the no connections really. Except for a few students here. Which I'd love to do, but no one seems to have time (and frankly I don't have much).
So...now what? Not music history, cause vomit. Considered joining a drum corps, but I don't think I really have the stamina/money to do it. Professionally teaching percussion would probably require that. Annnnnnd. Music librarian? No. Requires music history stuff. Music copyist? Maybe. Doesn't seem like a too stable job though.
This winter I'm gonna try something different. I'm going to invent my own percussion instruments. I already have some ideas and sketches. I figure if I regain my uniqueness in musical instruments, I might regain some passion for music in general. That way I can write my own music and play it on my own instruments. And I'll be the best at it cause no one else will have done it. Like Tony Hawk. Skateboard innovator. Okay skateboarder.
And there's my brain. In a nutshell. Or a skull.