the real me
well i did it, i made that call thats gonna get my mind back on the right track. i go see a shrink tomorrow, maybe she can help me to put my life back into perspective. i just feel so helpless or is it hopeless? the feeling i feel to hurt myself i havent felt that in a long time. i guess i thought i was over that,boy was i wrong. the feelings of that unexplainable pain. i dont want to do this anymore. i pretend that everythings ok but hell im not even kidding myself. she knows somethings wrong but dosent dig deep enough to know the truth,do i even want her to know the truth? i want to yell, scream that im not ok, i need and want help and i dont know who to turn to.i dont want to burden others with my depression, but i NEED someone to listen to me, i mean really listen.im crying out for help....can noone see my pain, can no one hear my cries??? i dont want these feelings can anyone help me when i cant even help myself??????????????????