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wow, i havent updated this thing in forever, i guess i dont feel the need to still, not enough happens
i feel like i just cant act like myself anymore, i dont know why, it just seems like there are too many people out there ready to make fun of you if you try to be yourself..
i guess i just feel like my life could be so much better, or that it was better last year or something..
it seemed like people trusted me more, and actually talked about important things instead of stuff like band or school, i mean i hear about band and school while im at band and school, thats about all i can stand of it.
i wish i could have the power to not care what anybody thought of me. then i could just do what i wanted instead of having to worry about others judging me..
i just started thinking today on how i havent been really happy lately what with all this band, not being able to skate, and seemingly closer friends, like all the friends i were really close to are all getting new friends or something..i dunno
i just want to be able to be myself and people to like me for that...
i feel like i just cant act like myself anymore, i dont know why, it just seems like there are too many people out there ready to make fun of you if you try to be yourself..
i guess i just feel like my life could be so much better, or that it was better last year or something..
it seemed like people trusted me more, and actually talked about important things instead of stuff like band or school, i mean i hear about band and school while im at band and school, thats about all i can stand of it.
i wish i could have the power to not care what anybody thought of me. then i could just do what i wanted instead of having to worry about others judging me..
i just started thinking today on how i havent been really happy lately what with all this band, not being able to skate, and seemingly closer friends, like all the friends i were really close to are all getting new friends or something..i dunno
i just want to be able to be myself and people to like me for that...