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Iwent to the cancer hospital to get my MRI results for my back. I was sitting there in the waiting room waiting and the sun started beating down on me from one of the sun roofs there. Its been pouring here for weeks. And I was sitting there, baking in the sun, the only spot on the whole floor that it was coming through the window and I just KNEW in my heart that the results of the MRI were going to be bad. I just knew at that moment that I should just leave.
I got the results and its not just a sprained muscle or anything else. I have a lesion in my vertebrae and the doctor said its "quite probable that the cancer has returned". I have to get a spine biopsy now and a PET and CT scans.
My mom had cancer, did all the treatments, and was in remission for a few years. Then suddenly she had constant pain in her hip.. and by the time someone took her serious they found the cancer was back and it had spread and she was dead within 6 months. WTF.
I have fought too many battles, I dont have the strength left.
It could be "something else" but the probability is on the cancer. fuck.To make things worse, the pain is getting worse everyday and no amount of drugs are helping. I cant sleep and I cant eat lately because the pain is intolerable. Ive been the ER twice in a week.
I got the results and its not just a sprained muscle or anything else. I have a lesion in my vertebrae and the doctor said its "quite probable that the cancer has returned". I have to get a spine biopsy now and a PET and CT scans.
My mom had cancer, did all the treatments, and was in remission for a few years. Then suddenly she had constant pain in her hip.. and by the time someone took her serious they found the cancer was back and it had spread and she was dead within 6 months. WTF.
I have fought too many battles, I dont have the strength left.
It could be "something else" but the probability is on the cancer. fuck.To make things worse, the pain is getting worse everyday and no amount of drugs are helping. I cant sleep and I cant eat lately because the pain is intolerable. Ive been the ER twice in a week.