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So I realized that I haven't updated this in a while.
I thought I might give that a try.
I stayed home from school today. I missed my bus, && didn't want to walk, because I was hung over. *shrugs* what can ya do?
So I still have a 4.0, or at least close to it, last time I checked. The school just now got my transcipt from West Linn. I'll be starting community service soon, so that I can have early release next year. Sixty hours = 1/2 credit. I have to do this huge packet && one page essay for every 60 hours I do. I need to do 240 hours total to earn two credits. Good thing I have a while to do this. It will be worth it though, next year.I will only have three classes a semester, most of which will be electives any ways. I can honestly say, that I will be coasting my way through the rest of highschool.
I caught a scorpian yesterday. It was in our bath tub. It's pretty big, actually -- a few inches long. It's bigger than any Jeff, my parents, or I have found before. We put him in an empty spaghetti sauce jar, and put two inches of rubbing alcohol in it to kill him. After a couple hours, we poured it out in to a bowl, with a folded paper towel layed down to absorb the alcohol. After about five minutes, he started moving again. Those little bastards are fucking hard to kill, && will kick your ass if you let it. We put him back in the jar, with more rubbing alcohol, && let it set over night. I'm pretty sure he's dead now, lol.
I've been in a weird state of mind for a long time now. Some could say I have gone back to the way I was before I moved to Arizona, but it's different some how. I don't know how, but my depression seems to have grown to a deeper level, way beyond how I was before. Any how, I've become really irritable with people here lately. And I'm really sick of getting hurt. Oh, I gave Jessie back his two shirts yesterday, that I've had for god only knows how long. He said he wants to keep my necklace, && he doesn't want to give it back. I don't think he wants to keep it for the sake that it's mine, it's just a cool necklace.. But what ever, I really don't care. I'm coming to find that I don't even love him any more. He's changed too much since he got back from PA. He's the same person, but I hardly know him any more. His loss.
I've come to find out that you get to thinking differently after some one close to you has died. Very differently. I don't know how to explain it, but not a day goes by that I don't think about it.
I find my self ignoring my mother for different purposes than usual. I haven't responded to any e-mails, and I haven't called her, even though I know that she needs me. I feel bad, but I can't bring my self to talk to her, because that means facing reality, and facing all the shit going on in Oregon. I hate it.
Idk what else to talk about. Um, I'm trying to get a job. I was going to work at Sonic, but they're taking too long. I'm going to try to get a hostess/waitress job at the Elephant Bar with Mikele. To those of you in OR, it's a pretty nice restaurant, so I'm thinking it will make more money than some place like Sonic or DQ. Plus it's a job that I can get promoted in and I think it will look better on my resume. If that doesn't work out- my father is going to try to pull some strings && get me a job at Texas Roadhouse. Should be good. If not, I have other options. I can work with Kaiti, at her new job, or theres a few pizza places that are hiring. If I worked at DQ I'd have to get a clear plug for my nose so it doesn't close up. Piercings are "unacceptable" there. I don't want to do that, plus I want more piercings, so I don't think I'd do that. I'm hoping to get my lip pierced after getting a 4.0 boths semesters. I'm hoping it'll happen. My dad has an attitude like it's going to be a possibilty. So, yay. I wish I was 18 so I could work at best buy. They make really good money.
Um, blah blah blah.. blah blah blah.. blah blah blah. Idk what else, so bye.