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i can & have accepted a lot of things about you, but i can't accept that you want me to change. i've done that before & i'm finally who i am right now. i'm not willing to change for anyone, not even you, again. i don't like being alone. if that makes you want to run, run. don't worry about "keeping your word".. i'm used to people not doing that now. i understand being scared, but you're not the only one. of course everything those people said made sense.. i just thought that this was different somehow. like we had something that most people only dream about & never actually find. it is a huge risk for both of us & if you don't feel that you can take it i'll understand. but i can't keep reassuring when i don't get any in return. well i thought i was, but maybe i just imagined it? wishful fucking thinking. i dont know. yes i did think we could be friends.. hoping anyway. obviously it isn't going to work & i can accept that. i think i had more to say, but it's not coming to me right now. other than, there was only one thing said that i believe actually is right in our situation.. you should tell me now. i don't like false hope anymore than you do.