a secret of mine
for many parts of my life, including my childhood, i have thought of changing my gender. there are days when i dont feel like a woman at all, when i feel like im a man through and through. I feel i would do better in this world if i were a man. i feel like my parents wouldn't dislike me as much if i was, i feel like life would be easier. Today is one of the days when i wish i could just do it, when i wish i could start scheduling appoinments for counseling and everything i need to do to prepare for and start the transition. Along with the confidence in my choice come the worries...will people still love me...will people still think of me the same if i change my gender, change my name...what do i do...what CAN i do...