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My independence is calling my name a doubtful voice divides my faith
My independence only hesitates an unsure choice I can't embrace you're
gonna have to carve me, carve me from stone
right to the bone or
I'll end up alone playing the role
Of someone in control
Will the dice ever roll
When will I ever know
Will the plot ever twist
Or will I still resist
I've been playing the part of a lost realist
I'm in a state of depression unlike any I've ever been. For the first time I'm actually questioning the worth of my own life. The point of it all. After all, am I really acomplishing anything? Of course not. I've been trying to keep a positive outlook. I kept trying to make plea's, ignored plea's, for people to look outside the system and open their eyes. To see the injustice of the world. To rise up, to change society. To change this whole god damn system. I've made many appeals to our generation, because after all, if we are the future, then why don't we change it for the better. All it's gotten me however is isolation. I've lost 99% of people I cared about. And the more I tried I neglected other things in life which now have caught up with me. My life is literally falling appart at the seams. This is one thing I can't fix. I suppose Karma has finally caught up with me. The only thing is, all the plea's, all the "crazy" acting were done in hopes of getting people to open their eyes and think. To change our world for the better. With every man word I said came immense guilt and pain, even when I said it didn't. Every time I hurt someone I couldn't sleep at night.
Infact I'm so damn depressed it's making me phisically sick. I can't stand to watch the world in the state it is now, with injustice running rampant and the masses pretending it does not exist. Yet I can't change it. I'm only one person. An insignificant child.
And it hurts knowning I can't do anything, yet I'm forced to watch it each and every day.
I actually cried today because I just couldn't handle watching it anymore..
This world is going down and we're doing nothing to stop it.
I just can't handle it anymore.
They say something's got to give, and I suppose I finally broke and gave.
I loose. You win.
And now that is real.
My independence only hesitates an unsure choice I can't embrace you're
gonna have to carve me, carve me from stone
right to the bone or
I'll end up alone playing the role
Of someone in control
Will the dice ever roll
When will I ever know
Will the plot ever twist
Or will I still resist
I've been playing the part of a lost realist
I'm in a state of depression unlike any I've ever been. For the first time I'm actually questioning the worth of my own life. The point of it all. After all, am I really acomplishing anything? Of course not. I've been trying to keep a positive outlook. I kept trying to make plea's, ignored plea's, for people to look outside the system and open their eyes. To see the injustice of the world. To rise up, to change society. To change this whole god damn system. I've made many appeals to our generation, because after all, if we are the future, then why don't we change it for the better. All it's gotten me however is isolation. I've lost 99% of people I cared about. And the more I tried I neglected other things in life which now have caught up with me. My life is literally falling appart at the seams. This is one thing I can't fix. I suppose Karma has finally caught up with me. The only thing is, all the plea's, all the "crazy" acting were done in hopes of getting people to open their eyes and think. To change our world for the better. With every man word I said came immense guilt and pain, even when I said it didn't. Every time I hurt someone I couldn't sleep at night.
Infact I'm so damn depressed it's making me phisically sick. I can't stand to watch the world in the state it is now, with injustice running rampant and the masses pretending it does not exist. Yet I can't change it. I'm only one person. An insignificant child.
And it hurts knowning I can't do anything, yet I'm forced to watch it each and every day.
I actually cried today because I just couldn't handle watching it anymore..
This world is going down and we're doing nothing to stop it.
I just can't handle it anymore.
They say something's got to give, and I suppose I finally broke and gave.
I loose. You win.
And now that is real.