Promises mean nothing anymore...
Maybe I'm making too much of a big deal out of this, but I feel that I'm not really important anymore. I feel like I have no real purpose here. Besides maybe be a thorn in people's sides, or that annoying thing that never goes away that everyone hates. I sometimes wish I didn't feel that way, but a lot of the time I can't really help it. But this past week has been VERY stressful for me. I recieved a note on my windshield yesterday, that I personally thought was kinda creepy, and I didn't really want to deal with at the time. I haven't been sleeping very well lately....Well...I have been sleeping well, it's just my R.E.M. cycle was constantly inturrupted by my alarm all week. So I've been very tired. I've had like 4 assignments due this week that depend on whether or not I graduate. Which is another reason why I didn't really need to find that note on my windshield thursday...I've got my last march tomorrow...My mom pretty much made a scene at Jostens (place that sold the caps&gowns for graduation) because the seniors in band don't get to wear them for the parade tomorrow...so she's bent on getting them by about 7pm tomorrow night...I have to type up my research project up tomorrow before the parade so I can get it over with. Hopefully my mom won't bother me while I'm doing it. It always happens when I sit down to work on something, my parents'll come in and disturb me and have me do something that could've been put off 'til I was done. I'm also stressed because I'm outta cash...which means I might be taking the bus for transportation to and from school soon because I can't pay for gas. Blah!!!!! >.<;; I wish I was graduated already, that way the worst thing I'd have to worry about was getting another job. And possibly having my co-workers hate me. But yeah....I also found out that a friend of mine that has promised me multiple times that he'd attend my graduation, is going to an anime con instead...even though he promised...My sister isn't bothering to show up, even though I showed up for hers when I had never met her before then. But she does have 2 kids, so I do understand to some extent....There are only like 3 people (other than my peers and teachers) that are showing up to my graduation...My parents (2) and our realtor who sold us the house we live in...So yeah...I'm a little disappointed in myself mostly for trusting anyone who makes promises, when I should know that promises are always broken. At least from what I've experienced in my life. So yeah...I've pretty much stopped caring about graduation ceremony itself...