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wow..today. or should i say yesterday.. went from excitement to a nightmare. good day at school. went to faculty student basketball game with plenty of friends. and had a great wonderful time. talked to jessica for a while before everyone made up their mind. i took her bracelet with balls and put them in my pants. so then everyone decieded to goto dennys. me and ryan go left instead of taking veterans and we get there fine. seeing a nasty crash on nicholas on the way. so we get to dennys and realize everyone is taking too long. i start calling people, called jessica like 9567864 times. no answer. called maria.. no answer called jackie, no answer. called cantieny, no answer. then i start thinking there was a change of plans and me and ryan are just not wanted. but then i call anthony. and he tells me somethign i ddint want to hear. jessica flipped her car. im hoping anthony is joking or exaggurating or something. then hes like no im for real. so we rush like hauling ass to the scene. we get there and theres more red and blue flashing lights then ive ever seen in my life. i start freaking out and run up looking for jessica. and i see her on the ground on a stretcher crying. and the paramedics wouldnt let me talk to her. so the only thing i could do was cry. i mean all i see is this blazer flipped over, completely totalled, jackie and jessica on the floor. 2 people i definately love. then i look and see like 6 more cars piled up, including melissa in others. so i could only imagine what going through ryans head right then. so im crying my head off, my friends are hugging me and stuff. i fricken love all you guys that were there for the girls. anthony, joe, matt, cantieny, frank, sangelo, david, ryan, and if i forgot you, im terribly sorry i just cant think that hard right now. but then we go abck to the hospital. im laying outside crying and so much stuff is running through my head. things like me realizing how great my friends are, how much i love jessica, what you would do for the people you love, how easy it is to lose someone you really care about, and even those what if's. so everyones at the hospital waiting. people just went slowly. like 1 by 1. jessica came out and she said she was okay. she didn't really talk to me, but thats okay. then more people leave and it ends up me anthony, cantieny, ryan, maria, her cousin, and kristen that all stayed for jackie to come out. she was alright, she had a little gimp goin. during this like 2 hour wait for jackie me and anthony walked around and talked about some deep stuff, and we all talked amungst eachother and stuff like that. then jackies house was the next place to be so they leave and go there while me and ryan took the kristen home. after that me and ryan are diving over to jackies and with tonights luck we get pulled over speeding. luckily ryan got out of that one with hospital talk. then we get to ajckies and i pass out on the couch. and they ate while i slept. then i was really thinking of home.. im tired and its been a long night. i need some sleep. so we all make the ride home plans. then ryan drops anthony off. then on the way to drop me off a stupid possum trys to run us fof the road. by that time we decieded on walking. cars are just shit. all trouble.
one thing i foudn out tonight is that you need your friends. and you find out who your friends are during something like this. it sort of brought us together and not take people for granted. (anthony speaks.)
i love you jessica. i dont know what i would have done if anything happened. sorry for not being there when it happened. <3

mikey.