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I can tell people I am happy, and that I'm only a little sad but the truth is that right now I feel realyl lsot. And I'm very sad, and have all these sad thoughts. I just want to run awy, to leave this entire city behind and forget everything. I don't know why I feel this way, but I do and it's killing me. I want to graduate and go away and start a new life without hurt, and sadness, and this weird dip in self-esteem.
I just don't feel important. I don't feel beautiful or worth anything.
It would jst be better if I coudl get out of here. That's it.
but we all know that I can't. So I'm stuck.
I don't know if I can blame this on PMS...maybe I can stick it on general girl hormones. But whatever it is I need to get rid of it. Becuase all these ugly thoughts that keep hitting me are making me very depressed. I mean I'm crying randomly on my drive home and it's ridiculous.
I hate being weak because I know I'm strong, and can stand alot. But I feel so stupid. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is driving me nuts!
I just don't feel important. I don't feel beautiful or worth anything.
It would jst be better if I coudl get out of here. That's it.
but we all know that I can't. So I'm stuck.
I don't know if I can blame this on PMS...maybe I can stick it on general girl hormones. But whatever it is I need to get rid of it. Becuase all these ugly thoughts that keep hitting me are making me very depressed. I mean I'm crying randomly on my drive home and it's ridiculous.
I hate being weak because I know I'm strong, and can stand alot. But I feel so stupid. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is driving me nuts!