My day full of nothing-ness
Today was a boring day. But at the same time I enjoyed it. My parents are gone out of town at my grandparents house so I'm here all by myself. I got to cook for myself so i was happy about that. I like to cook. I think i just dont like to cook for my whole family kuz i feel pressured too much.But i dont think im a bad cook. Except now my tummys hurtin'. But who knows it might not be from that so shut up!
I feel kinda down too bkuz I havent talked to Alex today. God how crazy is that? Ive never been like that to where i feel sad if i dont talk to a guy atleast once a day? Whatever though he'll probably call me at like 2am like always.Yesterday he was being really nice to me. Like to where it was noticable. I dunno if he was actually trying to or he was just doing it subconciously. Whatever though either way it was sweet. I love him a lot.And even though we arent offically together its like i can totally see myself with him. I dont care anymore what anyone thinks because its hard to find what we have and he makes me happy. Thats what matters. Even if people dont support my decision oh well bkuz im not gonna worry about what they think and let something great pass me by.I heard this hella good quote today saying " Dont settle for the person you can live with, but for the person you can't live without".And that really opened my eyes. Like i dont think i could live without Alex (i know that sounds kinda psycho) I mean of course phycially i could. But i'd rather be friends with him than nothing at all. He really is one of my best friends. And has taught me so much about myself. I've learned so many things from him I dont think there's anything i can do to thank him enough.I'm not afraid to express myself anymore. If theres a problem or something bothering me, i'll talk about it instead of keeping it inside and making it worse. And he's taught me not to be afraid of doing things, like falling in love. Because tommarow we could all be dead. Enjoy the happiness while it lasts.And I think what also falls into that is trust. From him i've learned to put my trust in someone. I mean ive given to people before but they always take advantage of it. This time im not scared to put it all out there. Wow. I never thought my life would be how it is now.But overall im happy with where im at.
I feel kinda down too bkuz I havent talked to Alex today. God how crazy is that? Ive never been like that to where i feel sad if i dont talk to a guy atleast once a day? Whatever though he'll probably call me at like 2am like always.Yesterday he was being really nice to me. Like to where it was noticable. I dunno if he was actually trying to or he was just doing it subconciously. Whatever though either way it was sweet. I love him a lot.And even though we arent offically together its like i can totally see myself with him. I dont care anymore what anyone thinks because its hard to find what we have and he makes me happy. Thats what matters. Even if people dont support my decision oh well bkuz im not gonna worry about what they think and let something great pass me by.I heard this hella good quote today saying " Dont settle for the person you can live with, but for the person you can't live without".And that really opened my eyes. Like i dont think i could live without Alex (i know that sounds kinda psycho) I mean of course phycially i could. But i'd rather be friends with him than nothing at all. He really is one of my best friends. And has taught me so much about myself. I've learned so many things from him I dont think there's anything i can do to thank him enough.I'm not afraid to express myself anymore. If theres a problem or something bothering me, i'll talk about it instead of keeping it inside and making it worse. And he's taught me not to be afraid of doing things, like falling in love. Because tommarow we could all be dead. Enjoy the happiness while it lasts.And I think what also falls into that is trust. From him i've learned to put my trust in someone. I mean ive given to people before but they always take advantage of it. This time im not scared to put it all out there. Wow. I never thought my life would be how it is now.But overall im happy with where im at.