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>>> I feel like im in a weird mood right now. I just watched "American History X", its not the first time i have seen it...but this time i actually sat and watched it the whole way thru. I got something out of it too. It showed me that one persons mistake can effect the people around them, and for the rest of their lives. I feel like i can kind of relate to it in a way. Its so sad how hate is so powerful. How it fuels people to take such drastic measures. Its crazy. I mean i hate to sound like such a hippie type person...but imagine there was a world with no such thing as hate,or enemies, or war. Like in this war we are going through right now? What is it proving? Other than that our nation is so blind due to the power-hungry man we call our president. It makes me ashamed to be American, when theres children get killed just because of where they live. How are we helping them, when they dont want our help. How can we try and change them, when they dont want to change. I dont know politics frustrate me...I hate how our nation takes so much pride in ourselves when we have just the same amount of wrong-doing on our part. Ha...and i totally got off topic didnt I...well, next subject.
>>> These past few days i have felt so lost. About myself. Its like i feel like im not going anywhere in life. It seems like all my friends have a plan for what they want to do after they graduate, what college they're going to, and what classes they will take. And here i am..i dont even know what im doing tomarrow. I feel like i should be doing more....more what? i dont know. I just dont want to be 23 years old still living in this city, working for less than 10 bucks an hour. Its like i need someone to show me what direction i need to be going. And the person who usually helps me out with that sort of thing isnt even speaking to me,momentarily (i hope only momentarily). I hate that im such a dependent person...why cant i figure things like that out on my own. Its like i need someone elses perspetive. Is that wrong? Maybe its normal, i dont know. That seems to be my phrase of the day...or more like phrase of the year, "I don't know". I just feel so frustraited. Like i want to take off running as fast i can until all of this stuff clears from my head,and i stop feeling so fucking sorry for myself...kuz its stupid. I know theres no such thing as perfect person...and i know that i have a great heart, a well-rounded personality, a good head on my shoulders, and im not ugly. So why do i come off as if im all insecure and want ppl 2 feel sorry for me or something???
>>> Hmm well i kind of lost my train of thought kuz i gotta phone call lol. But those are just my thoughts...
>>> These past few days i have felt so lost. About myself. Its like i feel like im not going anywhere in life. It seems like all my friends have a plan for what they want to do after they graduate, what college they're going to, and what classes they will take. And here i am..i dont even know what im doing tomarrow. I feel like i should be doing more....more what? i dont know. I just dont want to be 23 years old still living in this city, working for less than 10 bucks an hour. Its like i need someone to show me what direction i need to be going. And the person who usually helps me out with that sort of thing isnt even speaking to me,momentarily (i hope only momentarily). I hate that im such a dependent person...why cant i figure things like that out on my own. Its like i need someone elses perspetive. Is that wrong? Maybe its normal, i dont know. That seems to be my phrase of the day...or more like phrase of the year, "I don't know". I just feel so frustraited. Like i want to take off running as fast i can until all of this stuff clears from my head,and i stop feeling so fucking sorry for myself...kuz its stupid. I know theres no such thing as perfect person...and i know that i have a great heart, a well-rounded personality, a good head on my shoulders, and im not ugly. So why do i come off as if im all insecure and want ppl 2 feel sorry for me or something???
>>> Hmm well i kind of lost my train of thought kuz i gotta phone call lol. But those are just my thoughts...