That oh so familiar feeling
Of never being good enough is slowly creeping back into my thought process,
Between talks of being laid off at UPS and the Machine shop have really had me tripping hard.
I was told to take today off from my day job and while even though I for sure needed a break,
I have been awake for all of 2 hours and I already feel like I'm not doing anything because I could be working.
I honestly think I have some kind of fucked up problem that to feel useful or like I'm doing something I need to be working my normal 12 hour days. I'm not really sure how I feel about this or what the fuck I can even do about it but oh well. Guess I need to find a third job? haha nahtt. Other then that shits gewd. I need to shoot soon so uhhh anybody wanna volunteer to have your pictures taken?! I don't care if you never have before because neither have I. Well never shot anybody with my camera anyways lolzzz
Between talks of being laid off at UPS and the Machine shop have really had me tripping hard.
I was told to take today off from my day job and while even though I for sure needed a break,
I have been awake for all of 2 hours and I already feel like I'm not doing anything because I could be working.
I honestly think I have some kind of fucked up problem that to feel useful or like I'm doing something I need to be working my normal 12 hour days. I'm not really sure how I feel about this or what the fuck I can even do about it but oh well. Guess I need to find a third job? haha nahtt. Other then that shits gewd. I need to shoot soon so uhhh anybody wanna volunteer to have your pictures taken?! I don't care if you never have before because neither have I. Well never shot anybody with my camera anyways lolzzz