When the sun sleeps
Christmas is upon us and I'm stok3d
Things have been really good the last couple of months.
My perspective on everything is just so positive and I love it.
I'm still kind of looking for a job, my boss isn't getting divorced anymore.
But I still hardly work due to it being the winter time.
Ill be back in school for minimester B.
I'm excited but nervous but doubtful.
I'm not the type of school person at all.
I never was and I never will be, every degree, even the most simple ones.
Seem so, so I don't know unobtainable. I just don't have a positive outlook on school.
But I'm going to go back anyways, for my mom at least.
Being the oldest kid from all the children from my moms side of the family.
I am expected to be the first to go to college and shit like that.
I guess since everyone is expecting me to, it kind of makes me not want to go.
Maybe I just dislike people making major decisions for me, totally disregarding
my feelings and idea's and stuff.
Whateverrrr.
I ordered a lens for my camera, and I'm really excited for it.
I love my new camera but I don't get to use it but for Thursday and then thats it.
Kaleigh is graduating from BCC with her A/A
I'm really excited and really proud of her.
I still miss her though, even if I did just see her.
Destiny is going to be a mommy soon.
It seems so far away but it will come so soon.
Shes having a babygirl and I can't wait to beat off d00dz
and scare them with gunz and shit.
haha <3
I need to see her soon too
shits weak.
It's times like these, the holidays when I miss my dad the most.
And I miss him in an indirect way. Things are just so different,
even though this is our second Christmas without him here.
I don't ever specifically think, "Man I miss my dad."
But things are different and it shows in each one of my
family members face.
Treasure the times you have with your loved ones while you can.
Because you never know, when they won't be there.
But I'm going to be okay like always and I owe a large part of that to one person
<3
I want to write this whole big thing on how much Marissa means to me.
But they aren't words that are capable of describing what she means to me.
And how she makes me feel.
I love this girl, end of story.
And I don't even stress not being able to explain to you guys with words
on how she has affected me and what she means to me.
I know she can feel it every time I look in her eyes, or kiss her, or just hug her.
When either of us have had a bad day, I know as soon as I even talk to her things
begin to get better.
Life is so good and I'm so thankful
I need to start going back to church
There is a TWLOHA event December 29th at the social.
Everyone should make their way out there.
I'm probably going to be there.
I wanted to leave a quote here at the end,
but I can't think of one off the top of my head.
So
I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New year.
And I hope one day you all will be able to find someone
That can make you feel the way my special someone does for me.