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I have decided that it is time to change pace for a little while, at least as far as my livejournal entries go. I know for the past few entries it has been nothing but anger, angst, emotional dribble and the like but that has honestly been my life (except of course the drug related killing of my body). I guess because my mind is reverting as usual back to its cocoon of utter apathy and idiotic obsession, while still retarded and complacent. I don't really have much of a mind left, but its funny because I can't seem to find a reason to use it. @_@
Anyhow, I don't believe I have much to complain about, which I guess has been my general use of livejournal for as long as I can care to remember. Just as well the holes have been filled with the occasional pointless story, or rambling monologue that no one cares to read. However, despite that I'll continue to post here for some time, and mostly for myself as a kind of log of my life.
Recently I've retraced my life back through the plethora of entries dating as far back as 2002 I think. I've found it really interesting to relive the moments I have mapped out through my words and random entries that could either be days apart or months apart. Events that sometimes, I don't want to remember, others that I'm glad I went back and saw. It's more reflective and revealing about yourself than you would think.
Now into the usual things about my life and its status...I've been generally alright actually. It's been day to day more or less and I'm back on antidepressants which will help a lot with cutting down on smoking. I'm going to be making bank soon, which is awesome. Once fall settles in and school begins again, I'll be working for my Dad, my Uncle and as a lifeguard and swim instructor. It turns out, I'll either be high, in school, working, sleeping, or high.(or high in school/work). ^_^
I'm done caring about the whole Dana thing. I'm honestly I think past it finally. No regrets.
I'm single and I suppose I'll just bask in this freedom while I still have it. Nothing tieing me down and I can do whatever I want, and go wherever I want without worrying about a girl and what she'll think about anything I do. It more or less just hit me, the fact that I have nothing keeping me from doing whatever I want...
Anyhow, I don't believe I have much to complain about, which I guess has been my general use of livejournal for as long as I can care to remember. Just as well the holes have been filled with the occasional pointless story, or rambling monologue that no one cares to read. However, despite that I'll continue to post here for some time, and mostly for myself as a kind of log of my life.
Recently I've retraced my life back through the plethora of entries dating as far back as 2002 I think. I've found it really interesting to relive the moments I have mapped out through my words and random entries that could either be days apart or months apart. Events that sometimes, I don't want to remember, others that I'm glad I went back and saw. It's more reflective and revealing about yourself than you would think.
Now into the usual things about my life and its status...I've been generally alright actually. It's been day to day more or less and I'm back on antidepressants which will help a lot with cutting down on smoking. I'm going to be making bank soon, which is awesome. Once fall settles in and school begins again, I'll be working for my Dad, my Uncle and as a lifeguard and swim instructor. It turns out, I'll either be high, in school, working, sleeping, or high.(or high in school/work). ^_^
I'm done caring about the whole Dana thing. I'm honestly I think past it finally. No regrets.
I'm single and I suppose I'll just bask in this freedom while I still have it. Nothing tieing me down and I can do whatever I want, and go wherever I want without worrying about a girl and what she'll think about anything I do. It more or less just hit me, the fact that I have nothing keeping me from doing whatever I want...