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I really feel now like I'm the only person I know that really gives a shit about anyone that they consider a friend. I'm sick of people that don't necesarily lie, so they can cover their ass, but still can bail and not give a shit about their friends. I'm tired of being the only one that will go out of their way and go above and beyond to see somoene, make someone feel better, and just be a good friend. I put my entire heart and soul into my friendships because thats what they mean to me. i havnt seen anyone else with that kind of dedication. its fucked up and i'm really fucking sick of it.
example...i will go and drive 40 minutes a number of times throughout the week, by myself, just to go and see a person i consider a good friend of mine...I'll do it all the time and as much as I can, without overstressing my wollet (even sometimes stressing it) just so i can say hey and see them for a few hours..then drive another 40 minutes home. I waste shit tons of gas going to see people and help people out but when something happens with me or when i want somoene to come see me, and theyre all HELL YEAH....last second..they usually decide..oh..well..its too far..sorry i cant come.
WHAT THE FUCK.
I had about 7 kids I knew in OH...who were going to all road trip to NJ to hang out and party for a weekend..and it was all planned out and talked about a month and a half ago so people could get off work and etc etc....this week comes and i try to get ahold of people...every...single...one of them...bailed on me. with reasons such as "oh..i dont have enough money.." even though..lets see...if they carpool..its like $40 per person for gas roundtrip...and another little bit for food..and maybe $10 a person for alcohol. "oh i cant get off work"....WHY???? I TOLD YOU ABOUT THIS AND YOU TOLD ME A MONTH AGO YOU COULD AND THAT EVERYTHING WAS FINE....guess uhm...you forgot???? bullshit.
i'm fucking tired of being the only person who really honestly 100% cares about their friends..and when asked " would you do anything for your friends?" I think i'm the only person who can honestly say yes to that question and still go to fucking heaven.
Does anyone?...anyone at all?...understand what i'm saying?
And i dont want this to be like "oh man now i feel guilty that he's bitching about me being a bad friend..i guess i should talk to him again and try to defend my sorry ass!" no...fuck you.
example...i will go and drive 40 minutes a number of times throughout the week, by myself, just to go and see a person i consider a good friend of mine...I'll do it all the time and as much as I can, without overstressing my wollet (even sometimes stressing it) just so i can say hey and see them for a few hours..then drive another 40 minutes home. I waste shit tons of gas going to see people and help people out but when something happens with me or when i want somoene to come see me, and theyre all HELL YEAH....last second..they usually decide..oh..well..its too far..sorry i cant come.
WHAT THE FUCK.
I had about 7 kids I knew in OH...who were going to all road trip to NJ to hang out and party for a weekend..and it was all planned out and talked about a month and a half ago so people could get off work and etc etc....this week comes and i try to get ahold of people...every...single...one of them...bailed on me. with reasons such as "oh..i dont have enough money.." even though..lets see...if they carpool..its like $40 per person for gas roundtrip...and another little bit for food..and maybe $10 a person for alcohol. "oh i cant get off work"....WHY???? I TOLD YOU ABOUT THIS AND YOU TOLD ME A MONTH AGO YOU COULD AND THAT EVERYTHING WAS FINE....guess uhm...you forgot???? bullshit.
i'm fucking tired of being the only person who really honestly 100% cares about their friends..and when asked " would you do anything for your friends?" I think i'm the only person who can honestly say yes to that question and still go to fucking heaven.
Does anyone?...anyone at all?...understand what i'm saying?
And i dont want this to be like "oh man now i feel guilty that he's bitching about me being a bad friend..i guess i should talk to him again and try to defend my sorry ass!" no...fuck you.