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So, i'm kind of just chilling in my suite watching That 70's Show with my roommate Justine and her boyfriend, Dan... this is kind of boring and in a way sad for me.
I'm lonely again, because of course, my roommate has a boyfriend that is going to be over on the weekends when he's back from college... I only hang out with Alex and Joshua which is not a bad thing.. but a single can only spend so much time with two friends that are on the verge of dating and they are always cuddling.. i'm jealous.
I just read a friend's post about his revelation with his dad and i realized that in the 18 1/2 years i've lived with him.. he's never once opened up to me except the time i told him that Corey was more of a father than he was.. then he started crying.. but in those tears i don't know if it was because he actually felt bad or because he knew i was right... that my brother only 4 years older is better at raising a girl.. a child even, better than him. I love my dad .. i never figured out why because he's never really been there... but i guess it's just one of those kind of loves you have to feel otherwise it feels like guilt if you don't love your parents. My parents are still together because my dad figures its easier than going through divorce, but mom always had to be dad and now... she's psychotic (not literally, but me and my brothers like to think so). Anyways.. i guess after everything they've put me through, i can only become stronger. I lost my job a week ago and i cried for about an hour than i knew what i had to do. Do whatever i can to get my job back. And actually the head of the whole company was in the room and he said that i am really strong because he wouldn't be able to walk back into a room of coworkers after just being fired.... this is the first job i've ever been fired from, but it's the first job that i'd be willing ot do anything to get it back. for me, this job wasn't about the money, it was about the people and what i've learned from everything. I wouldn't trade it so now i'm working with one of my supervisors to write a letter of appeal to get my job back. So right now i should be going to bed because tomorrow is the first day of classes and i'm quite content. i go to school year round for a reason.. this whole first day of school is so overrated... well i'm actually tired now.. i'll update more later... i promise.
Im still waiting for that guy to find me.. or at least give me an answer, lol.
I'm lonely again, because of course, my roommate has a boyfriend that is going to be over on the weekends when he's back from college... I only hang out with Alex and Joshua which is not a bad thing.. but a single can only spend so much time with two friends that are on the verge of dating and they are always cuddling.. i'm jealous.
I just read a friend's post about his revelation with his dad and i realized that in the 18 1/2 years i've lived with him.. he's never once opened up to me except the time i told him that Corey was more of a father than he was.. then he started crying.. but in those tears i don't know if it was because he actually felt bad or because he knew i was right... that my brother only 4 years older is better at raising a girl.. a child even, better than him. I love my dad .. i never figured out why because he's never really been there... but i guess it's just one of those kind of loves you have to feel otherwise it feels like guilt if you don't love your parents. My parents are still together because my dad figures its easier than going through divorce, but mom always had to be dad and now... she's psychotic (not literally, but me and my brothers like to think so). Anyways.. i guess after everything they've put me through, i can only become stronger. I lost my job a week ago and i cried for about an hour than i knew what i had to do. Do whatever i can to get my job back. And actually the head of the whole company was in the room and he said that i am really strong because he wouldn't be able to walk back into a room of coworkers after just being fired.... this is the first job i've ever been fired from, but it's the first job that i'd be willing ot do anything to get it back. for me, this job wasn't about the money, it was about the people and what i've learned from everything. I wouldn't trade it so now i'm working with one of my supervisors to write a letter of appeal to get my job back. So right now i should be going to bed because tomorrow is the first day of classes and i'm quite content. i go to school year round for a reason.. this whole first day of school is so overrated... well i'm actually tired now.. i'll update more later... i promise.
Im still waiting for that guy to find me.. or at least give me an answer, lol.