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I do love him. I think I always will love him in some way. Most likely not the way I used to love him.
Right now, though, I”m so fucking fed up with it all. I’m fed up with feeling like this and so fucking fed up with just sitting minding my own damn business and he creeps into my thoughts as if he was invited. Fuck that. Fuck it. I’m so tired of it. I’m getting so frustrated and, just, gahhh with it. I need to stop, but how do I stop? I don’t think about him all the time, thank goodness, but still. It’s enough to drive any sane person crazy.
Jordan says I just need to find someone new. Maybe that is what I need. A new crush. Crushes are fun. I think I’ll try that. Then there’s part of me that’s like “Crush on him again” No, I can’t. He doesn’t like me, doesn’t want me there is no chance whatsoever, why should I torture myself with that again? I shouldn’t. Therefore, I won’t. I need to, like, force this frustration and anger onto something else, turn it into something productive. I need to.
Right now, though, I”m so fucking fed up with it all. I’m fed up with feeling like this and so fucking fed up with just sitting minding my own damn business and he creeps into my thoughts as if he was invited. Fuck that. Fuck it. I’m so tired of it. I’m getting so frustrated and, just, gahhh with it. I need to stop, but how do I stop? I don’t think about him all the time, thank goodness, but still. It’s enough to drive any sane person crazy.
Jordan says I just need to find someone new. Maybe that is what I need. A new crush. Crushes are fun. I think I’ll try that. Then there’s part of me that’s like “Crush on him again” No, I can’t. He doesn’t like me, doesn’t want me there is no chance whatsoever, why should I torture myself with that again? I shouldn’t. Therefore, I won’t. I need to, like, force this frustration and anger onto something else, turn it into something productive. I need to.