Out of my Mind
What does that saying really mean... You're out of your mind! Out of your mind. It's really dumb, I think.I know what it MEANS .. it's just the words themselves that seem odd. We have a lot of those words and phrases in the English language. I'd like to thank Stephen King for a good few of them. Jesus Christ Bananas!! The man is insane. Cant think of any others off the top of my head. We share a birthday. The End.
I wanna punch some people right now. I'm not so much in a mean mood so much as an ass kicking mood. Like people that have let me down or not kept up thier end of our bargains or whatever ... They need a punch. Like seriously. I feel so isolated the last few days. Like no one wants to talk to me on IM. No one wants to omment to my journal entries. No one wants to scene with me. And I'm contemplating making a couple new chars.. for a comm with Riss, but .. fuck me if I make one more damned char that despite of my attempts at involvement ends up sitting there and rotting I'm going to be like pissed off a lot. I mean, in RSVP the Orlando there.. I know the mun well .. we used to scene all the time, so my char I would be making would be pretty much friends carried over from another game. I mean I hope anyway... so I think that's safe.. but, no one ever really responds to Ville. And I dont wanna put it on you Riss as to whether or not he flies, but Bam is like the only char he would really have interaction with. Sure Novak but, I dont know how well nov-mun is going to take to Ville and I have insecurity issues right now due to prior char incidents right now. I just feel so like, sick right now. I know alot of it has to do with the fist full of pills I just took.. which is my daily regimen, but still. Uhg.
So, now that I have the fish tank moved.. I can continue so ever-so-slowly to make myself back into a writer again. I have the cloud of a SL starting in my head right now. It's total fluff, but whatever, ya know? I cant write slash so I'll never be interesting to anyone. All I'll say is that it involves Bam, and all the CKY crew (not band) and Dunn ending up in a coma for a while ... and Novak hating my mary-sue. ( I call all my female chars Mary-sues cause ... I dont know what really makes one not beone.. so I just kinda pre-title her that so that o one can bitch later. And if she turns out not to be... so be it.) It's going to be a bit of a drama fest. It's pretty in my head right now. Ape and Phil even get written in if I have my way with my bunny. My best ideas come to me when I first wake up but still lay around in bed and just ... think. That way Im still kinda half asleep and things flow better than in a reallity hindered mind.
My sinuses are being tres evel. ie they are kicking my ass. I'm debating going to the evening class tonight because theyre taking the glazed ware out of the kiln tonight. That way I can get my stuff .. and see my chaotic creations. Maybe take a few pics if theyre halfway decent. I'm hungry and groggy and kinda cold. Cest le vie. Oh-blah-dee-blah-dah. I took new pics of me .. me and my cam whoring self. NOt really.. I suck at self pics with the digi. 90% of them get deleted before they ever leave the camera. So, I'll go edit those now and maybe make like a cam-whore-montage together and then post it.
Namarie ...
♥ Chelle
I wanna punch some people right now. I'm not so much in a mean mood so much as an ass kicking mood. Like people that have let me down or not kept up thier end of our bargains or whatever ... They need a punch. Like seriously. I feel so isolated the last few days. Like no one wants to talk to me on IM. No one wants to omment to my journal entries. No one wants to scene with me. And I'm contemplating making a couple new chars.. for a comm with Riss, but .. fuck me if I make one more damned char that despite of my attempts at involvement ends up sitting there and rotting I'm going to be like pissed off a lot. I mean, in RSVP the Orlando there.. I know the mun well .. we used to scene all the time, so my char I would be making would be pretty much friends carried over from another game. I mean I hope anyway... so I think that's safe.. but, no one ever really responds to Ville. And I dont wanna put it on you Riss as to whether or not he flies, but Bam is like the only char he would really have interaction with. Sure Novak but, I dont know how well nov-mun is going to take to Ville and I have insecurity issues right now due to prior char incidents right now. I just feel so like, sick right now. I know alot of it has to do with the fist full of pills I just took.. which is my daily regimen, but still. Uhg.
So, now that I have the fish tank moved.. I can continue so ever-so-slowly to make myself back into a writer again. I have the cloud of a SL starting in my head right now. It's total fluff, but whatever, ya know? I cant write slash so I'll never be interesting to anyone. All I'll say is that it involves Bam, and all the CKY crew (not band) and Dunn ending up in a coma for a while ... and Novak hating my mary-sue. ( I call all my female chars Mary-sues cause ... I dont know what really makes one not beone.. so I just kinda pre-title her that so that o one can bitch later. And if she turns out not to be... so be it.) It's going to be a bit of a drama fest. It's pretty in my head right now. Ape and Phil even get written in if I have my way with my bunny. My best ideas come to me when I first wake up but still lay around in bed and just ... think. That way Im still kinda half asleep and things flow better than in a reallity hindered mind.
My sinuses are being tres evel. ie they are kicking my ass. I'm debating going to the evening class tonight because theyre taking the glazed ware out of the kiln tonight. That way I can get my stuff .. and see my chaotic creations. Maybe take a few pics if theyre halfway decent. I'm hungry and groggy and kinda cold. Cest le vie. Oh-blah-dee-blah-dah. I took new pics of me .. me and my cam whoring self. NOt really.. I suck at self pics with the digi. 90% of them get deleted before they ever leave the camera. So, I'll go edit those now and maybe make like a cam-whore-montage together and then post it.
Namarie ...
♥ Chelle