Feel what its like to be new...

[dvea]

Today I am odd. I feel like a baby. My body moves in such weird ways, and I don't know how to control it and so I hurt myself-- hitting my head and tearing the skin off my leg. And like a new born I know nothing. Today I seem to stumble over my words more than usual and make a total ass of myself. Simple questions seem so difficult to understand and it makes me sad. I wish I could laugh at myself because this state would seem so much easier then.

Each day it pretending becomes more and more harder--