Otimo 2011
Wow. 2011 is here. I even remember when I wrote an entry about Otimo 2009. Idk if you are the same but to me it seems quite unreal to be that far. Some years ago I wished I could be older, I could move out and go to university finally but today, when all this is nearby I wish I could stop the world from turning. Time rushes by so fast, I can barely hold on to it.
In about 4 months I'm going to do my A Level (Just 4 more months to go.. gosh), in about half a year I'll matriculate myself for University and the biggest part of my life will be over.
In one and half a year I'll turn 20. Okay, it's just a figure. A single 2 and a 0. I shouldn't be worried about getting twenty or even older. These might be the best years I'll ever have but I kinda worry about the future. Those first 20 years have passed by so fast, what about the next. Are they going to rush as fast the ones before? Is it even legitimate to make up my mind about something like that now?
If I think about the past year, I could tell you a bunch of stories about people I met, people who left and who stayed. People like Oli, who I think I love but who doesn't want to get into it. People like Andy, who I was really into but just disappeared, Aljoscha... and others.
And People, I get to know, just like Daniel or Christian. Two very great guys who I could fall for and others, I might get to know later. Is it worth being worried about the future although I know there's great stuff coming up and shall I really yearn over the past? I have no Idea.
In about 4 months I'm going to do my A Level (Just 4 more months to go.. gosh), in about half a year I'll matriculate myself for University and the biggest part of my life will be over.
In one and half a year I'll turn 20. Okay, it's just a figure. A single 2 and a 0. I shouldn't be worried about getting twenty or even older. These might be the best years I'll ever have but I kinda worry about the future. Those first 20 years have passed by so fast, what about the next. Are they going to rush as fast the ones before? Is it even legitimate to make up my mind about something like that now?
If I think about the past year, I could tell you a bunch of stories about people I met, people who left and who stayed. People like Oli, who I think I love but who doesn't want to get into it. People like Andy, who I was really into but just disappeared, Aljoscha... and others.
And People, I get to know, just like Daniel or Christian. Two very great guys who I could fall for and others, I might get to know later. Is it worth being worried about the future although I know there's great stuff coming up and shall I really yearn over the past? I have no Idea.