Coming to an End
I'm just sitting her thinking about how much I miss my Michael. I've been thinking about a lot of things lately, the past, the present and a lot about the future. Never before in my life have I felt all three so present within me, and its very alarming. Spending the past couple weeks alone has allowed me to reflect on myself and heal old wounds from the past. I've put a lot of things to rest and learned a lot about myself that I've left hidden. Its helping me to deal with all that has been thrown my have this year, and I've realized I'm a lot stronger than I thought, and I can take pride in that. I think for the first time in my life I have truly realized my worth as a person and my self esteem has really rose. Though I still have a lot to do in that department, I know now that I deserve a lot more than I thought I did, and that its ok to want to work to be the best. At the same time I've learned its ok to fail as well. I think my life and who I am and want to be are really coming together. This all gives me great hope for the future and all the wonderfull things it will bring. I know now that I can be my own person and work for whatever I want in life and everything ahead, dispite whats behind me, looks very bright.
Its weird that when I think about my plans for the future, they always include Mike. I've never thought that way before about anyone, but it just really feels right. Maybe when you find that person you are meant to be with it just clicks and everything seems right. All I know is I want to have him with me always and that as soon as it is and as crazy as it sounds, I've never loved anyone more in my life. Maybe we'll have the fairy tale ending and live happily ever after. However I'm sure life will throw many obstacles our way, I want to go through them all together. I can't even picture myself without him now.....weird how your life can change in an instant! Thanks Leigh Ann for having a birthday so me and mike could realize there was something between us at the party!!
In other news....
Soo many graduation parties, I'm socialized out!! haha
Talked to Leigh Ann for a while tonight, it was SOOOOO nice to talk to her, made me realize I really do have friends when I thought I didn't.
I only have one more episode of Dr. Quinn left on Season 3.......Guess after that I have to start from season one and watch them all over agian.....haha
Its weird that when I think about my plans for the future, they always include Mike. I've never thought that way before about anyone, but it just really feels right. Maybe when you find that person you are meant to be with it just clicks and everything seems right. All I know is I want to have him with me always and that as soon as it is and as crazy as it sounds, I've never loved anyone more in my life. Maybe we'll have the fairy tale ending and live happily ever after. However I'm sure life will throw many obstacles our way, I want to go through them all together. I can't even picture myself without him now.....weird how your life can change in an instant! Thanks Leigh Ann for having a birthday so me and mike could realize there was something between us at the party!!
In other news....
Soo many graduation parties, I'm socialized out!! haha
Talked to Leigh Ann for a while tonight, it was SOOOOO nice to talk to her, made me realize I really do have friends when I thought I didn't.
I only have one more episode of Dr. Quinn left on Season 3.......Guess after that I have to start from season one and watch them all over agian.....haha