the past few days, life altering events...getting arrested and my first party

[dutchess69]

fighting w/ my mom for the past few days, leaving when she told me not to. i go to mac's, this was thursday. did a couple lines of adderal and hear someone yell police and bang on the door. in comes the swat team. bulletproof vests, ski masks, 6 guns each. one of the scariest moments of my life. face on the ground, getting handcuffed, searched. having my adderal taken, treated like shit. had my mom sign for me, she wasn't too happy. now rehab soon, not sure when. i don't have a problem, why would i go? this is a pain in the ass. after crying all night friday night wanting to kill myself i wake up saturday for work and get bitched at. i was late, whatever. hammond picks me up, we go to brandon's. chill for a few, sarah picks me up, we chill too. i go to pats, walk to mac's go to my first rave party. it was the best night of my life, for sure. a couple pills of E, a boyfriend for the night, the music, the atmosphere, i loved it. it was so perfect, i forgot everything i was worried about. the lights, the people, everyone was so nice. it was indescribable. we went back to sleep at someone's house, we slept until 1. woke up, my boyfriend took me to britt's, im chillen. time to shower so im not all grungy, gotta go. i am so happy right now, i love everyone. michelle, call me.
love always
stephanie