Sundance valley 15/16
Title: Sundance valley 15/16
Author: dutch_chick aka Jenny
Rated: NC-17
Word Count: 41.000
Pairing: Jared/ Jensen
Disclaimer: This is not real.
Genre: AU.
Summary: Jensen work at his dad resort hating the rich people who come there even if he is one of them. Until he meets Jared
authors note: I couldn’t decide on the title so… open for suggestions. Also this story is finished and will be posted 3 times a week.
Beta: cowboyangel and 42footprints who are my hero's.
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The next morning Jensen wakes up in bed alone. His head hurts and his stomach is trying to escape his body through his mouth. But nothing hurt more that the fact that he woke up alone.
He couldn’t believe that Jared was this angry with him, this upset about how things went. After his talk with Chris yesterday Jensen had came up with a plan. He figured out why Jared was upset. At least he thought he did.
Jared was upset because he just lost everything, his parents, his rich friends and his school. The only thing Jared could be sure about was Jensen. And with Jared being as insecure as he was, it must be hard for Jared to rely on him.
And then his parents offered to pay for his school, well the timing was off.
Jensen had realized that he needed to be strong, not for himself but for his boyfriend. Jared was the one chasing after him, Jared was the one who talked after their first fight. Jared had initiated everything and Jensen had just been, well there. He needed to take the lead now, he needed to show Jared that this, their relationship, was as important to him as it was for Jared.
Now he just needed to find Jared and tell him that. Only problem is he had no clue to where Jared was. So he did the only thing he could think of, he called Chad.
“Hey homeboy,” Chad says answering his phone.
“Where is Jared,” Jensen didn’t have time to make small talk nor did he want to. He figured that if someone knew where Jared was it was Chad.
“He doesn’t want to talk to you,” Chad says.
Jensen thinks for a while. Of course Chad wasn’t going to help him. He was Jared’s friend. Even if the lines where fading there were still people who clearly had Jared’s back. The first one being Chad. Hell even Chris defended the guy the other night.
“Where are you?” Jensen asks, he wanted to see Chad in person so that he could explain and maybe beg.
Chad sighs, “Look dude, I don’t want to get involved in this. You two are my friends and, “then Chad sighs again, “he’s in my room okay? Just, tell him that he’s crazy and that you love him and fix my best friend. Just, don’t have sex on my bed.”
Before Jensen could reply Chad hung up. Jensen stares at his phone for a few minutes. Chad had said that Jared was in his room. Which meant there were in the same house. So all he had to do was stand up and walk over there. Jensen couldn’t believe it was that easy.
When he walks in to the room Jared was lying there on Chad’s bed. He doesn’t move when Jensen enters nor when he sits next to him on the bed. For a moment Jensen wonders if Jared was asleep but then the other man speaks
“Guess Chad ratted me out.”
“I don’t think it really ratting on someone when you’re not really hiding.”
“I thought it was a smart move, hiding in plain sight. It works in the movies all the time,” Jared says turning his back to where Jensen is sitting.
“Ah yeah but not in this movie. In this movie the guy finds the girl and convinces her how much he loves her,” Jensen puts a hand on Jared’s hip resisting the urge to wrap himself around his boyfriend.
He was scared of being rejected. He knew it was stupid, knew that Jared had gone through too much trouble to not be serious about this. But a little insecure irrational part of his brain was still afraid that Jared would stand up and realize that Jensen just wasn’t worth the trouble.
Jensen did his best to push that part aside and save his relationship.
“Are you calling me a girl?” Jared asks but there is a teasing tone in his voice.
“ Well you did have some girl freak out,” Jensen says smiling then he sighs, “we need to talk about what happened yesterday.”
Jared sits up looking at Jared his eyes serious, “What the hell happened yesterday?” he replies.
“My parents offered to pay for your education and you freaked out,” Jensen answers.
It wasn’t really what happened. Jared just freaked out, ever thing that happened got to much for him Jensen guessed.
Jared shakes his head, “I know what happened, but why did your parents offer me the money. I did nothing to deserve it and I will never do anything to deserve it.”
Jensen takes a deep breath, he didn’t know where Jared was going with this but he was happy enough that they were talking, “I love you, that’s enough for them I guess. They know you don’t want anything from them, they just want to help.”
Jared looks at him confused, “I don’t want to owe your parents anything.”
Jensen nods, he kind of understood. Or at least he was trying to. Jared’s parents had used their money as a way to control him and he didn’t want anyone else having that kind of power over him. He didn’t know Jensen’s parents like Jensen did. Jared was used to the fact that money had strings attached.
“Look Jared, you have to help me here. I’m insecure enough as it is. You’re the strong one,” Jensen confesses, he doesn’t know what to do and he doesn’t want to ruin this.
Jared takes a deep breath, “I don’t want you to feel guilty about what happened, if you ever want to leave me I don’t want you to stay because of that.”
“I would never want to leave you!”
“And I don’t want either of us to ever wonder if I stayed with you because of your money for school. Listen Jensen it’s not realistic to think you find the love of your live when you’re 18” Jared continues like Jensen hadn’t spoken.
Jensen’s hart jumps, Jared wanted to leave him. Was he telling him that? His whole body shivers, “Love isn’t realistic, “he grumbles before he can stop himself.
Then he reminded himself that he needed to be the strong one right now. He needed to overcome his insecurities for Jared.
Jared wraps his arms around Jensen and Jensen lets out a sigh of relieve, “I don’t want to leave you. I don’t think I ever will but fuck Jensen that is right now do you think it will be like this in 10 or 20 years. ”
“I love you and you love me I don’t care about the reasons,” Jensen says leaning into Jared’s touch.
Inside he was freaking out. Jared was right, he had thought about it before. He thought about Jared leaving him down the line. And he knows that he probably won’t survive that if it ever happens. But leaving Jared now, always wondering what if, well that would hurt even more. So yeah Jensen was willing to fight, he needed to fight. Jared made him realize that after their first fight, only now he needed to make Jared realize it too.
“You might, down the line. I just never want to become an obligation to you.” Jared says.
Jensen really doesn’t think he’d ever feel that way. A relationship is about giving and taking. Jensen already thought of whatever was his was Jared’s also. He didn’t even consider that Jared didn’t feel the same way. Jensen feels Jared nuzzles the back of his neck placing small kisses there. Jensen leans his head back to fall on Jared’s shoulder. It was so easy to turn around and kiss Jared, forget the fight ever happened.
“You can never be sure about the future anything can happen,” he whispers.
It was true, they both could die tomorrow. You have no control over what happens. But if Jensen could control everything he wanted to spend the rest of his live with Jared.
Jensen stops breathing for a moment. He never thought about it that much but the realization that he wanted to spend the rest of his live with Jared was kind of shocking. In a good way.
“I want to be with you forever Jared,” it took Jensen so much courage to say that out loud.
In some way Jared was right, they were young. But Jensen knows how he feels. This didn’t feel like a crush or infatuation, this was so much more. So sure they were still young and maybe they still had some wild hairs. But how often do you find a person who you felt so strong about? Jensen figured that when you did you had to hold on with both hands. He was planning on doing that, no matter how scared he was right now.
“The money doesn’t matter. If you don’t want it, well then fuck it, we can life in the poor house for all I care. But you should know that what’s mine is yours no matter what.”
Jared’s hold on Jensen tightens but the other man doesn’t speak.
Jensen takes another deep breath trying to hold on to his new found courage, “I will be in school for just one more year, so if you want you can take a year off and then when I start working I’ll pay for your school.”
“You’ll do that?” Jared asks pulling back and turning Jensen around so that they could look at each other.
“Well you need to learn a profession, you can’t live off me for the rest of your live. And if you really want to be independent you can work and my parents won’t need to pay for anything. It’ll just be the two of us.”
Jared turns Jensen around and looks at him long and hard. Like he’s trying to figure out if Jensen was honest. Jensen just hoped that he could see in his eyes that he was.
“What if we break up Jensen?”
Jensen frowns, “Well you’ll be a lawyer you can pay me back if you needed to.”
“You really think it’s that easy?” Jared asks disbelieve coloring his voice.
Jensen shakes his head, “Kind of like student loans right. Come on Jared I get the feeling you’re not even willing to try,” Jensen adds feeling desperate.
Jared hands tighten their grip on Jensen arms. Then he pulls Jensen into a hugs.
“You parents can pay. We’ll pay them back when we both have jobs. But I want it noted that I will pay them back,” Jared says after he pulls back from the hug.
Jensen feels a weight lift off him the moment the words leave Jared’s mouth. He leans in to kiss the other man deep and desperate.
They’re both breathing a little harder when they pull apart.
“I love you,” Jared whispers.
Jensen leans his forehead against Jared’s closing his eyes, “I love you to. Now don’t ever do that again, you’re supposed to be the strong secure one.”
Jared lets out a small laugh, “Ah baby you were so strong and masculine.”
Jensen is grateful that Jared is trying to break the tension.
“Well I am the man in this movie.”
Chapter sixteen