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I know break just barely started, but I don't know something doesn't seem quite right. I thought I would be going out and seeing more people not just friends but anybody either family or neighbors,etc. But in reality I'm just sitting here at home not that it's a bad thing. Sometimes a person needs to stay in every once in awhile and relax but it seems like I've done too much relaxing. I just want to break free and get into motion someway somehow meaning doing some sort of activity. I never realized this but I really hate sitting on my butt all day doing nothing. It's not like I have finals to study for because they are done with and I already have my grades so it's a nice feeling not having to study but also a weird one since I used to study over this break. Yeah at first I was excited about making the Dean's List, but that excitement was only temporary now I'm like yeah whatever no biggie. I don't know what it is with me I get these bouts of loneliness and it's not that I miss school either. I mean I miss some people there but that is usually given and I like it there, but I can't say that I love it yet so I can't assume that that is what is promoting my loneliness. Times like these I wish I had a larger family with cousins that are my age or close in age. Sorry to be the downer with this jolly ole holiday upon us but this was really bugging me. I think I just needed to type it out and we'll see if it helps.