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as bad as it sounds, some days i wish i had never met or dated sam. i wouldn't be so sad or depressed right now. and her running off with chrissy everywhere wouldn't pierce my heart. i just got to get fucked up enough that when i sober up i have forgotten everything. i made myself a slipknot last night. i was crying so uncontrollably. i started to choke myself on the phone charger chord. i can't stand being left alone. my thoughts take me to a very dark and depressing place. but i don't really like being in the presence of others.