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well sobering up is harder than i ever imagined. granted it is my second time around. but the first time was forced an was in rehab. and i wasn't heart broken at that time in my life. only infatuated with a girl i couldn't really have. this time around is worse because i AM heart broken. its harder for me to be happy again. i feel so incomplete. i dont understand how she could have possibly really wanted to marry me and be able to get over me so fast kissin everyone. it really brings me down when everyone asks me about sam's new girlfriend. the one everyone sees her kissing. i don't know how to answer them. it hurts every single time. i just want to cry all the fuckin time. i would do anything to have another chance with her. its never going to happen according to her. but hope keeps me going for now. even if it is false hope