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I don't write for attention and I don't expect a lot of response when I post fics. I am a small potato and I'm pretty content with that. But, man, I still tend to expect something and I tend to be right to do so. And I'm usually on the money when I do post something that I expect to get more response than my usual. Yet here I am, five days into a drabble series that I was sure would get at least a few kudos on AO3 and I have... one kudos for it as of this morning.
Ngl, this has me off-kilter. It's not like it's the first time I've overestimated the broad appeal of something I've posted and expected more than what I got but it's been a while since I've had this much surety built up only to fall flat. It's a fandom that has been fairly reliably responsive, ime. Heck, I've underestimated the response in this fandom more than I've overestimated or even been right. Some of the nicest and most uplifting responses I've gotten on any writing have been when I've written for this fandom, for these characters. And I felt pretty good about these drabbles, y'know?
Just. Idk, it's a letdown, is all, especially compared to the giddy high of the zine. It doesn't help that this is the first writing I've posted in almost a year and I guess I thought this would make for a glorious return, by my standards, lol. I'm trying not to be too in the dumps about it-- I mean, the drabbles are being posted for a charity event, which is obviously the most important part-- but it's easier said than done, I admit.
Ngl, this has me off-kilter. It's not like it's the first time I've overestimated the broad appeal of something I've posted and expected more than what I got but it's been a while since I've had this much surety built up only to fall flat. It's a fandom that has been fairly reliably responsive, ime. Heck, I've underestimated the response in this fandom more than I've overestimated or even been right. Some of the nicest and most uplifting responses I've gotten on any writing have been when I've written for this fandom, for these characters. And I felt pretty good about these drabbles, y'know?
Just. Idk, it's a letdown, is all, especially compared to the giddy high of the zine. It doesn't help that this is the first writing I've posted in almost a year and I guess I thought this would make for a glorious return, by my standards, lol. I'm trying not to be too in the dumps about it-- I mean, the drabbles are being posted for a charity event, which is obviously the most important part-- but it's easier said than done, I admit.