reunion
hello friends
...those of you who are left.
or no one
either way i've decided that i'm moving on. and by moving on i mean staying right where i am and saying different things (ha)
stolichnaya bottle, here i come.
i spent an hour going through my old deadjournal, my high school livejournal, and this one. and what i've found is that i'm the same person six, three, and two years later.
who knew?
the same...just in a different place.
new hair color, new boyfriend, new condo, new car, new life.
new friends. new job.
but i miss the me who could write for hours and paint until the zinc tipped my fringers white. as if i had lost all bloodflow in my hands. i miss the me who felt. really felt. so deeply, passionately, enough to put a thousand letters together into emotions that read better than they looked in real life.
sigh.
remembering sucks.
maybe this is why i drink til i forget i'm awake.
i think i'll try and make writing a habit again. perhaps it will ignite some sort of creativity. i'm tired of being dull. besides, it's showing in my hair, and that's just sad.
till next time, dolls.
xo
-d
...those of you who are left.
or no one
either way i've decided that i'm moving on. and by moving on i mean staying right where i am and saying different things (ha)
stolichnaya bottle, here i come.
i spent an hour going through my old deadjournal, my high school livejournal, and this one. and what i've found is that i'm the same person six, three, and two years later.
who knew?
the same...just in a different place.
new hair color, new boyfriend, new condo, new car, new life.
new friends. new job.
but i miss the me who could write for hours and paint until the zinc tipped my fringers white. as if i had lost all bloodflow in my hands. i miss the me who felt. really felt. so deeply, passionately, enough to put a thousand letters together into emotions that read better than they looked in real life.
sigh.
remembering sucks.
maybe this is why i drink til i forget i'm awake.
i think i'll try and make writing a habit again. perhaps it will ignite some sort of creativity. i'm tired of being dull. besides, it's showing in my hair, and that's just sad.
till next time, dolls.
xo
-d