flirt slut
how do u know when your fucking something up b4 it actually happens????? i thought everything as going great but apparrently(sp) its not. i dont make effort and i dont love her as much anymore. but i do and she doesnt understand that! she means more to me than anything in the world and i aint felt like this in my whole life. no-one has ever made me feel the way she makes me feel and i dont reckon any1 else ever will. bored! me? not a chance. she fills my soul with light no matter where we are or wat we do, she's my life my soul without her im nothing. id rather bleed to death than live a day without her. im hurting and for what? for everything i am!!! yeh and the fact that i feel like im losing the one good thing in this pishy shitless life of mine. i hate who i am at times, i wish i cud change!!! why do i act the way i do. i donno im like a constant flirt. guess thats my way of being nice, trying to make friends. would it be dif if it was a guy???? is my actions see as wrong cos im a bean??? ahh too many questions. ive cried to much tonight. im hurting to much tonight, i wanna go to you!!!! i miss you!
~i feel alone~
~i feel alone~