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it's so wierd being here now, sitting in my room, alone.. i'd like to say no one's around, but i know that isn't true.. i can hear everyone around me it just feels like no one's there.. the things i've heard make me sad and the words keep reverberating in my head.. sometimes they scare me..
and am i too difficult to live with..? do i get too moody or reclusive to understand..? this is my second year of living with people.. or am i just paranoid enough to think these problems exist and then, in the end, create them? ..and am i going to drive the other ladies away as well when i eventually move in with them?
when i'm in my apt in erie i yearn for my room in pittsburgh, but when i'm in my room in pittsburgh i yearn for my apt in erie.. in niether place do i feel safe and in neither room do i feel like i'm home..
i just want to be home.. wherever that is...