Late update...
Update on me!!!
It's so funny how you give up so much for one person, but in the long one you are the one forgotten...
You mold your life around one person and then when everything is said and done, you never happened...
You presence is taken out of their lives and thrown aside...
I gave up many great friendships for Chris and now that it is all over those friendships I gave up stand out the most.
Today I was sick, still am, but i was pretty bad. I called Mike crying and home alone. He came to my house with medicine, soup, and comfort. He helped me take some medicine, make some soup, and said i could go to his house. Chris told me he didn't like me being friends with him. I almost totally lost Mike's friendship so many times for Chris. But now after all is said and done, Mike has been by my side this whole time, while Chris forgets me with each passing day. I don't want regret our relationship, I just wish I could've changed things about it.
My friends have been there for me through so much in the past 2 months and I am so grateful. They have been there to tell jokes when I was at my worst, they were there to help me get through rough times, they were there to make me happy and drunk (sometimes :}), they have been there for me so much and I hate to say because of my loyalty to Chris I gave a lot of that up for 2 years.
I'm not saying I'm not miserable now. But I'm not saying I am one hundred percent happy. It was 2 years of my life. 2 very long years of my life. So I can't erase the good times or the bad times... But right now the bad times stand out the most. Which isn't a bad things, cuz how do you get over someone when you think of the good times. I am better now. A lot better now.
Well, this is my update on life. I take life a day at a time. Trying not to rush life away. But soon I will buckle down and be serious, but it's summer... And this summer I'm single... I get to do all those things I wanted to. The things I wanted to do with Chris, but he was too young. Now I get to do it with all my friends, who are no younger than 18, besides Alex (who will be 18 in September)
Peace, Serenity, and Harmony!!!!
~Saira
"Live for no one but yourself!!!"
It's so funny how you give up so much for one person, but in the long one you are the one forgotten...
You mold your life around one person and then when everything is said and done, you never happened...
You presence is taken out of their lives and thrown aside...
I gave up many great friendships for Chris and now that it is all over those friendships I gave up stand out the most.
Today I was sick, still am, but i was pretty bad. I called Mike crying and home alone. He came to my house with medicine, soup, and comfort. He helped me take some medicine, make some soup, and said i could go to his house. Chris told me he didn't like me being friends with him. I almost totally lost Mike's friendship so many times for Chris. But now after all is said and done, Mike has been by my side this whole time, while Chris forgets me with each passing day. I don't want regret our relationship, I just wish I could've changed things about it.
My friends have been there for me through so much in the past 2 months and I am so grateful. They have been there to tell jokes when I was at my worst, they were there to help me get through rough times, they were there to make me happy and drunk (sometimes :}), they have been there for me so much and I hate to say because of my loyalty to Chris I gave a lot of that up for 2 years.
I'm not saying I'm not miserable now. But I'm not saying I am one hundred percent happy. It was 2 years of my life. 2 very long years of my life. So I can't erase the good times or the bad times... But right now the bad times stand out the most. Which isn't a bad things, cuz how do you get over someone when you think of the good times. I am better now. A lot better now.
Well, this is my update on life. I take life a day at a time. Trying not to rush life away. But soon I will buckle down and be serious, but it's summer... And this summer I'm single... I get to do all those things I wanted to. The things I wanted to do with Chris, but he was too young. Now I get to do it with all my friends, who are no younger than 18, besides Alex (who will be 18 in September)
Peace, Serenity, and Harmony!!!!
~Saira
"Live for no one but yourself!!!"