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[duskyn]

There are things I really need to change. Some of those things are becoming more and more apparent as the days go on, and that's good. It means that I can't fall into the normal laziness that'll take over. At times, it feels like I'm back in school with papers and finals I should be doing looming somewhere in the background while I pretend they're

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[st_chair]

I have to stop being complacent about the things about myself and my life I'm not happy about. I'm the only one with the power to change them.

That is so true!

I need goals as well, because I'm very good at doing nothing. And since I live alone, I could literally spend all my evenings watching funny cat videos on youtube and eating chips on the couch. No one would have to know!

That's not what I want my days to be like, though. So every once in a while (and more frequently these days) I stop and ask myself what I want out of life and if I'm taking the necessary steps to achieve my goals. Often the steps are tiny baby steps, but they add up in the long run.

I'm half-seriously dreaming of an 1-year around-the-world trip. It's not possible (and I wouldn't even want to go) right now, but what I can do is make decisions that'll make it possible one day. Like putting aside a little money every month for that purpose. Maybe one day I'll go, and if not, then at least I'll have a good amount of money saved up. In any case, I have a life to live and enjoy right now.

[duskyn]

Ha, I am too! That does sound like a fun evening. Cat videos on Youtube are the best. One of my favorite moments on my final day in Bangkok was watching cat videos in the coffee shop attached to my hostel with one of the guys I had met.

I think that is something I need to start doing. I can get so caught up in the day-to-day that I forget what it's all for. I get frustrated with work, but when I actually stop and think about it I realize I'm doing what I can for now. There are some decisions I have been putting off and putting off, but I'm still paying off those loans and having enough free time to do the things I want. Sure, I'd like to make enough to have all the loans paid off in the next year, but that just isn't happening right now. It doesn't mean they won't get paid off though.

A 1-year around-the-world trip sounds completely amazing. Just 4 months was awesome, but an entire year would be so amazing. I really hope you do get to do it eventually. <3