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How many times can I say I don't care until it actually starts being the truth? Probably an infinite number of times. I'm getting frustarated. Lately i've been alternating between "i love me I love everyone i love life" and just like "what is there, im such a dumb person i don't appreciate what i have which is very little im lonely blah blah blah" with no real consistent pattern in either. Sometimes I start thinking about college and living somewhere new and meeting new people, and sometimes this is exciting. Sometimes I think of the same thing and I get really lonely and afraid. My life is one big complicated and tedious equation but all that it simplifies down to is basically X= i want to go to sleep i want to kiss hot boys i want to do art, the variables are how i feel about this.