First of all James.. I never wanted to stress you out. You're bringing it all upon yourself. Second, I have to goto the doctors soon too, and what they are gonna do to me is FAR worse than getting stuck by a stupid needle. Third, god knows if you DO have it, I mean think about it, you bleed for no reason sometimes... and a few other things.
You're not gonna die, James. I never wished it on you, I've never wanted to make you angry, I'm just worried about you. All I wanted to know before is why you aren't calling me like you always do. You would think the same thing if I suddenly stopped talking to you altogether, I know you would. I am worried about you because no matter how much you fight with me, no matter how much you can make me upset sometimes, you are STILL the most important thing in my life. So stop thinking like that.
And another thing, I understand why you're pissed at everyone else too, and I understand that. But stop thinking we're all against you. And even if that is the case, at least I'm not. I was never against you, all I EVER wanted to do was to make you happy and help you. All you did was yell at me for trying. Last time we talked I was actually really happy because you decided to treat me like a person instead of a yelling and telling me what to think. You asked me what I thought and I loved you for that, it made me go through the next day feeling better.
You want the drama to keep going? Then keep acting like a jerk. All you have to do is call me back when I ask, and talk to me. Then I wont bug you like I have the past fucking week. And NUMEROUS times that I've left messages, I've said "Sorry" I don't mean to be a fucking pain, and I know I am being one right now, but how else am I gonna talk to you? You complain you don't see me much, WELL, think of the options I gave you. Email me back for a change, call me when I need you... not that hard. It's like I have to leave a message for you to call me anymore. when you PROMISED.
I also don't like the way you fight with your mom all the time, I never said that made me happy. To see you lonely, depressed, angry... That's what made me depressed. Seeing the guy I love more than ANYTHING show any sign of sadness, and there wasn't too much I can do about it. So when you say "I hope your all happy..." don't even THINK that I fit into that. These whole 3 months have been hell for me, because I know we're both hurt.
You'll be fine during the check up... I've had blood taken twice in a row. I think you can handle it better than I can. You told me to be strong and brave... And well, I think it's your turn.
You're not gonna die, James. I never wished it on you, I've never wanted to make you angry, I'm just worried about you. All I wanted to know before is why you aren't calling me like you always do. You would think the same thing if I suddenly stopped talking to you altogether, I know you would. I am worried about you because no matter how much you fight with me, no matter how much you can make me upset sometimes, you are STILL the most important thing in my life. So stop thinking like that.
And another thing, I understand why you're pissed at everyone else too, and I understand that. But stop thinking we're all against you. And even if that is the case, at least I'm not. I was never against you, all I EVER wanted to do was to make you happy and help you. All you did was yell at me for trying. Last time we talked I was actually really happy because you decided to treat me like a person instead of a yelling and telling me what to think. You asked me what I thought and I loved you for that, it made me go through the next day feeling better.
You want the drama to keep going? Then keep acting like a jerk. All you have to do is call me back when I ask, and talk to me. Then I wont bug you like I have the past fucking week. And NUMEROUS times that I've left messages, I've said "Sorry" I don't mean to be a fucking pain, and I know I am being one right now, but how else am I gonna talk to you? You complain you don't see me much, WELL, think of the options I gave you. Email me back for a change, call me when I need you... not that hard. It's like I have to leave a message for you to call me anymore. when you PROMISED.
I also don't like the way you fight with your mom all the time, I never said that made me happy. To see you lonely, depressed, angry... That's what made me depressed. Seeing the guy I love more than ANYTHING show any sign of sadness, and there wasn't too much I can do about it. So when you say "I hope your all happy..." don't even THINK that I fit into that. These whole 3 months have been hell for me, because I know we're both hurt.
You'll be fine during the check up... I've had blood taken twice in a row. I think you can handle it better than I can. You told me to be strong and brave... And well, I think it's your turn.
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