books, sex, thoughts and faith
i think i'm in love with Michael. which is very very very very... pathetic because michael is a character from a freaking BOOK. but yeah i love that guy. But there is this guy in my art class (who doesn't seem to be gay... not that i have problem with that or anything) named Alan and he looks exactly the same as michael is described in the book, blondish hair, glasses, skinny but not very skinny, tall (but not alot taller than me), attractive (in opnion), nice boddy :) but the funny thing is, is that i notice Alan like on the first day of school and i liked him. but now i like even 'more', not to the point where i want to be his girlfriend (but if it will happen i won't complain), because every time that i look at him i start to 'see' michael. it's not like he was real or anything or maybe he was but i just can't get him out of my head. maybe it's beacuse the way that he acted with the sex thing (in the book, since the book was about havin sex for the first time), now it's not that i think about sex all the time ( i actually do but it's not all i think about) but i don't know. this book defently made me think about sex even more ( in a good way ofcourse). urgsss I LOVE BOYS. but i can't think about boys any more because me and donna figured that the reason that we don't have someone is because we think about boys 24/7 and faith doesn't like that. so which means that we have to not think about boys (or atlist not as much ) and then faith will find him for us. which is true. very true because i defently know it from experience.