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I had a small breakdown today in the shower. I felt complete overpowered by the results of this year's election. I know this is a late reaction, but it just trully became clear to me. I feel like I've lost something vital to my existence.
And I have. I have lost the acceptance of my country. I can foresee Bush's administration wreaking havoc on the gay community. Already Ohio has amended its state Constitution to ban gay marriage.
Some would say that there's nothing to worry about--that there's no way the U.S. Constitution could be amended to constrict rights! Bullshit, I am perfectly certain there are enough justices that will suavely ignore that minor technicality.
Some would also say, "Oh, he only has four years in office..."
Are you serious? How can I be expected to voluntarily live in a country where the very driving force which is supposed to be protecting me is in fact working against my basic rights? No person should endure that for a day!
And I realized that I am expected by many to endure that. And that struck like a lead weight in my gut, gouching and twisting in my intestines and seeping slow poison into my veins. I felt helpless in the most absolute way. I felt like this is too big, and I have no idea where to start to try and make things better.
And then I realized, my own pride in myself is the first step to victory. The fact that I can maintain that means that I still have hope of change. All things start within yourself and only can spread from there.
So, I will still fight, in my own small way. I will not be trodden over silently. My rage will echo through the vaults of hell before I am quietly subjugated and suppressed.
This is MY revolution, and I believe it's right on time.
And I have. I have lost the acceptance of my country. I can foresee Bush's administration wreaking havoc on the gay community. Already Ohio has amended its state Constitution to ban gay marriage.
Some would say that there's nothing to worry about--that there's no way the U.S. Constitution could be amended to constrict rights! Bullshit, I am perfectly certain there are enough justices that will suavely ignore that minor technicality.
Some would also say, "Oh, he only has four years in office..."
Are you serious? How can I be expected to voluntarily live in a country where the very driving force which is supposed to be protecting me is in fact working against my basic rights? No person should endure that for a day!
And I realized that I am expected by many to endure that. And that struck like a lead weight in my gut, gouching and twisting in my intestines and seeping slow poison into my veins. I felt helpless in the most absolute way. I felt like this is too big, and I have no idea where to start to try and make things better.
And then I realized, my own pride in myself is the first step to victory. The fact that I can maintain that means that I still have hope of change. All things start within yourself and only can spread from there.
So, I will still fight, in my own small way. I will not be trodden over silently. My rage will echo through the vaults of hell before I am quietly subjugated and suppressed.
This is MY revolution, and I believe it's right on time.