communication without verbal language, Day 3
This is the third day of a period of time in which i am not using language. I am using my vocal chords, i.e noises, grunts, whistles, mmmm
I am also using hand gestures, charades, and sparingly, pen and paper.
Every now and again i feel it is neccesary to speak a word or two, but these are few and far between.
if i need to convey a special message and the person is not good at reading my signs, I would rather write, because the temptation to speak a great deal, once one word is spoken, is too great.
God told me to listen. It was after the steel pulse show...
I got in free after hovering outside feeling like my spirit was drawn to go but tickets were 20$.
A brother helped me in, he had the pull i suppose.
Not speaking is a beautiful teacher. I am blessed with a beautiful speaking voice; i am articulate and have a broad vocabulary. Using this voice i have been given to strengthen the spirit is key.
However, there are times when the EGO sees how powerful my voice is and takes control of it for it's own gain. Thus i am sometimes a confused rambler, knowing not when to stop... overpowering the convorsation space even though my message is shallow.
Most things are easy to communicate without speaking. Making a motion of drinking indicates that you desire a beverage. Hands are easily shaped into a heart shape, after which you point to the person or thing you are expressing love and appreciation for. Rubbing the belly and smacking lips will indicate need for food. Also sometimes reading lips or pointing to a written word will do. Fear? clucking like a chicken
Thank you can be expressed by clutching the heart or making a praying motion.
There are somethings, however, that are difficult to impossible to express. Such as "How do you feel?"
"where did you come from?" "My name is..." Or anything that is philosophical.
"If such and such, then such and such." "i was thinking" Past tense is next to impossible.
This period of time has reminded me of chistopher, and our silent time together. Do i really miss people?
No. I desire to spend time with... I would like to see... i would like to communicate with...
I respect distance. I love from here! Bless you on your journey, beautiful friend! I do not trust your flesh, however love the flesh you're in. I trust the spirit in you, for allah is the only "place" worthy of giving trust. I ache to spend time in your physical presence. You were in a vivid dream with me last night. In this dream, you saw me but did not acknowledge me. I was aware of how i would have reacted if i was not centered in the spirit. It was as if i reacted to the same stimulus twice.
First i saw you, brightened up with joy, you walked past me. you wandered the street. i saw you from a high window, and i could have gone down after you, but was content to stand and watch you go.
at the same time, my ego ran after you, crying, "you didn't even come and say hello! no hug? did you see me? what's wrong?
The latter was mostly a "if" i was scattered and led by the ego.
I was truly comfortable with your aloof reaction to my presence, unattached, surreal.
I am also using hand gestures, charades, and sparingly, pen and paper.
Every now and again i feel it is neccesary to speak a word or two, but these are few and far between.
if i need to convey a special message and the person is not good at reading my signs, I would rather write, because the temptation to speak a great deal, once one word is spoken, is too great.
God told me to listen. It was after the steel pulse show...
I got in free after hovering outside feeling like my spirit was drawn to go but tickets were 20$.
A brother helped me in, he had the pull i suppose.
Not speaking is a beautiful teacher. I am blessed with a beautiful speaking voice; i am articulate and have a broad vocabulary. Using this voice i have been given to strengthen the spirit is key.
However, there are times when the EGO sees how powerful my voice is and takes control of it for it's own gain. Thus i am sometimes a confused rambler, knowing not when to stop... overpowering the convorsation space even though my message is shallow.
Most things are easy to communicate without speaking. Making a motion of drinking indicates that you desire a beverage. Hands are easily shaped into a heart shape, after which you point to the person or thing you are expressing love and appreciation for. Rubbing the belly and smacking lips will indicate need for food. Also sometimes reading lips or pointing to a written word will do. Fear? clucking like a chicken
Thank you can be expressed by clutching the heart or making a praying motion.
There are somethings, however, that are difficult to impossible to express. Such as "How do you feel?"
"where did you come from?" "My name is..." Or anything that is philosophical.
"If such and such, then such and such." "i was thinking" Past tense is next to impossible.
This period of time has reminded me of chistopher, and our silent time together. Do i really miss people?
No. I desire to spend time with... I would like to see... i would like to communicate with...
I respect distance. I love from here! Bless you on your journey, beautiful friend! I do not trust your flesh, however love the flesh you're in. I trust the spirit in you, for allah is the only "place" worthy of giving trust. I ache to spend time in your physical presence. You were in a vivid dream with me last night. In this dream, you saw me but did not acknowledge me. I was aware of how i would have reacted if i was not centered in the spirit. It was as if i reacted to the same stimulus twice.
First i saw you, brightened up with joy, you walked past me. you wandered the street. i saw you from a high window, and i could have gone down after you, but was content to stand and watch you go.
at the same time, my ego ran after you, crying, "you didn't even come and say hello! no hug? did you see me? what's wrong?
The latter was mostly a "if" i was scattered and led by the ego.
I was truly comfortable with your aloof reaction to my presence, unattached, surreal.