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is this depression?
as i am writing this now, im crying and i feel so damn bloody sad.
im so sad nowadays that i know its not normal.
i dont talk to people as much, i dont go out as much, i always feel sad.
I dont sleep well, i still eat alot tho maybe more even and i dont know whats going on with me.
i hate work thats one thing i know, and ive officially resigned. i dont even wna wait for my 2 weeks to be over i just dont ever wna work ever again. isetan skanks
since the day i received my alevel results its like im not myself anymore, its like i myself am embarrassed to be me if that makes sense.
its like im thinking what did i do to deserve this.
and for those who are reading lol who dont know my results,
its bcca/s s for gp.
i know its pathetic to still feel so caught up with my grades a month after its been released but i still cant believe it to this day.
i hate pity, but i think im pitying myself the most.
its like ive been numb since the 1st of march, and 2 days ago my sadness kicked in again when my mum told me to accept nyp. like i know i have a slim chance of getting anywhere at all with fucking shit grades like mine but i now truly know that i dont wna do physio at nyp.
and it starts on the 15 of march like what the actual fuck
i think thats the worst part of it all. like it came crashing down on me like i have to start school now like wtf i did nothing during my hols accept work and i hate my job?! fuck?!
i know i always try to stay positive but i think this is my breaking point uh.
like my parents are asking me to accept the thing and start schooling on the 15th of march and wait to see if i get accepted into any uni if i dont then i continue with the programme and if i do then i drop out.
the thought of it itself makes me cry.
like im wasting 1k+ so as not to risk not having a place anywhere
but it just makes me sad thinking about it. nobody fucking gets it.
seriously like nobody.
and i realised i dont like sharing my personal thoughts with anyone anymore or have i always been like this, i cant recall. but whatever. for now, i just know im really sad and always temperamental and yea.
i dont know what to do anymore. its like i dont even feel like doaing like its so sad that ive come to this point.
this is officially the lowest point of my life as of now.
i feel like saying more things but i dont know what to say.
as i am writing this now, im crying and i feel so damn bloody sad.
im so sad nowadays that i know its not normal.
i dont talk to people as much, i dont go out as much, i always feel sad.
I dont sleep well, i still eat alot tho maybe more even and i dont know whats going on with me.
i hate work thats one thing i know, and ive officially resigned. i dont even wna wait for my 2 weeks to be over i just dont ever wna work ever again. isetan skanks
since the day i received my alevel results its like im not myself anymore, its like i myself am embarrassed to be me if that makes sense.
its like im thinking what did i do to deserve this.
and for those who are reading lol who dont know my results,
its bcca/s s for gp.
i know its pathetic to still feel so caught up with my grades a month after its been released but i still cant believe it to this day.
i hate pity, but i think im pitying myself the most.
its like ive been numb since the 1st of march, and 2 days ago my sadness kicked in again when my mum told me to accept nyp. like i know i have a slim chance of getting anywhere at all with fucking shit grades like mine but i now truly know that i dont wna do physio at nyp.
and it starts on the 15 of march like what the actual fuck
i think thats the worst part of it all. like it came crashing down on me like i have to start school now like wtf i did nothing during my hols accept work and i hate my job?! fuck?!
i know i always try to stay positive but i think this is my breaking point uh.
like my parents are asking me to accept the thing and start schooling on the 15th of march and wait to see if i get accepted into any uni if i dont then i continue with the programme and if i do then i drop out.
the thought of it itself makes me cry.
like im wasting 1k+ so as not to risk not having a place anywhere
but it just makes me sad thinking about it. nobody fucking gets it.
seriously like nobody.
and i realised i dont like sharing my personal thoughts with anyone anymore or have i always been like this, i cant recall. but whatever. for now, i just know im really sad and always temperamental and yea.
i dont know what to do anymore. its like i dont even feel like doaing like its so sad that ive come to this point.
this is officially the lowest point of my life as of now.
i feel like saying more things but i dont know what to say.