er... Yeah..
The place was out of Applications...
Anyway.. Last night Michael finally admitted he didn't love me...
or.. Maybe it was Friday night.
I was relieved, I've known this for quite some time now.
Still stung slightly though... knowing it and having him 'fess up to it are quite different.
June 8th will be our 3rd year anniversary.
And I asked him today if he wouldn't mind If we mutually agreed to not be together.
He said he thought it was a good Idea.
That also stung, I guess I was expecting him to at least ask me "why?" or something...
But its for the best, neither of us feel the same way about each other as we used to.
Makes me wonder what True love is.
Like soul mates.
Of course I still love Michael. but he couldn't beat that fact out of me with a mace.
Its going to be kind of weird sharing the same bed after this Thursday.
*sighs*
I'm kinda sad. *sighs* very sad.
afraid too... I'm afraid of being alone... I know hes not ever gonna leave me, and we'll probably be stuck with each other for the rest of our lives. He is my best friend after all.
But, the whole never finding love thing kind of scares me.
Oh well. I know how lucky I am. That I'm not alone. so I will shut up now.
Still stings though... after all.. He was my first and only boyfriend... We were going to get married one day.
well... whatever... I'm just writing this to get it out... I want my own room, or at least my own bed... maybe even something bigger then the Twin we share would do...
I haven't told him I'm sad about it, not gonna either...
Haha.. don't tell him but I can tell the rest of the world.
ok... yeah whatever... I'm going now...
Ja...
~Duo
Anyway.. Last night Michael finally admitted he didn't love me...
or.. Maybe it was Friday night.
I was relieved, I've known this for quite some time now.
Still stung slightly though... knowing it and having him 'fess up to it are quite different.
June 8th will be our 3rd year anniversary.
And I asked him today if he wouldn't mind If we mutually agreed to not be together.
He said he thought it was a good Idea.
That also stung, I guess I was expecting him to at least ask me "why?" or something...
But its for the best, neither of us feel the same way about each other as we used to.
Makes me wonder what True love is.
Like soul mates.
Of course I still love Michael. but he couldn't beat that fact out of me with a mace.
Its going to be kind of weird sharing the same bed after this Thursday.
*sighs*
I'm kinda sad. *sighs* very sad.
afraid too... I'm afraid of being alone... I know hes not ever gonna leave me, and we'll probably be stuck with each other for the rest of our lives. He is my best friend after all.
But, the whole never finding love thing kind of scares me.
Oh well. I know how lucky I am. That I'm not alone. so I will shut up now.
Still stings though... after all.. He was my first and only boyfriend... We were going to get married one day.
well... whatever... I'm just writing this to get it out... I want my own room, or at least my own bed... maybe even something bigger then the Twin we share would do...
I haven't told him I'm sad about it, not gonna either...
Haha.. don't tell him but I can tell the rest of the world.
ok... yeah whatever... I'm going now...
Ja...
~Duo