"We will always be together. For all time! ...Nothing will ever be able to separate us."
We got everything packed except the computers and the clothes we're gonna wear tomorrow, and everything that can fit in the moving truck is in it. I realized last night, after spending most of the day packing, that this is really happening.
In the words of Yosho in Tenchi Muyo, "Now is the time to grasp the future." And in Washuu's words, "This is it!"
This is it. This is gonna be my last post from Idaho, 'cause I won't have time tomorrow before we start driving (unless I stay up all night, which is not happening). Zelly's not driving the U-Haul truck after all. She's driving Sandrock Custom, my car. My dad will drive the moving truck and I'm gonna be in the Jeep with Ako and Chiyori, helping keep an eye on the baby so Ako can concentrate more on driving. Tomorrow morning, we're packing the stuff that we didn't and couldn't fit in the moving truck, like two more boxes of my clothes and the box of bathroom stuff like shampoo, lotion, etc. We're packing the computers. And we'll herd our cats into the carriers that I'm sure they will hate by the end of the drive to Portland.
I'm really scared. Last night, I couldn't stop crying. I know, I know, it's pathetic, but I'm scared to leave my mom and my brother, despite the crap that goes on in this house, and I'm afraid to leave my friends. I'm going to miss them all, especially the Ellipsis kids.
I've lived with my mom for the last four, almost five years. I've gotten used to living with her instead of my dad, and whenever I've been in Portland before, it was with the knowledge that I'd be coming home again. I'm not sure if Dad's house will start to feel like home, or if I'll feel like I'm away at college and home is back here, where I come from. I'm not trying to say I won't enjoy being in a new place, meeting new people and at a school I actually look forward to attending. But I'm gonna miss Boise. I already miss my mom and my grandparents, and even my doofus of a brother. I'll miss my dogs. They know something is going on; they keep coming and sniffing at me and whining, and won't get out of the way whenever someone tries to walk across the house. The cats know something is going on, too. But the cats are coming with us. The dogs aren't. And I can't very well try to pack my mom up and take her with me, along with my whole house. It's impossible.
But it's not like I'll never see my mom, my brother, or my grandparents again. I know I'll see my friends again, too. I'm guaranteed to see Ellipsis at Sakuracon next April, if not sooner. And I won't fall out of touch with them. Obviously Eric and Mandy manage to stay in touch, and he lives about as far away from Boise as I will (he's in Salt Lake City, Utah). I refuse to let my friendships fall apart. I love my friends too much for that! ♥
That doesn't stop me being scared out of my mind, though. I can't seem to calm down. I'm sure that's normal, but...my mind is going about a thousand miles a second and I feel like time is distorted and rushing past in big gulps, then slowing back down and trickling past. I'm nervous as hell.
But I have to ground myself and stay optimistic.
This one's for you, Ellipsis: OVAAAAAAN! There are still so many things I want to say to you! But the strongest prayer is what it takes to change the world. So this is my prayer: that we'll always be friends, and we'll always have each other. I know it'll come true. If it tries not to, I'll smack it into shape.
"One ending, you know, is really a new beginning. We're not done; our journey will still continue. Don't you think that's true?"
In the words of Yosho in Tenchi Muyo, "Now is the time to grasp the future." And in Washuu's words, "This is it!"
This is it. This is gonna be my last post from Idaho, 'cause I won't have time tomorrow before we start driving (unless I stay up all night, which is not happening). Zelly's not driving the U-Haul truck after all. She's driving Sandrock Custom, my car. My dad will drive the moving truck and I'm gonna be in the Jeep with Ako and Chiyori, helping keep an eye on the baby so Ako can concentrate more on driving. Tomorrow morning, we're packing the stuff that we didn't and couldn't fit in the moving truck, like two more boxes of my clothes and the box of bathroom stuff like shampoo, lotion, etc. We're packing the computers. And we'll herd our cats into the carriers that I'm sure they will hate by the end of the drive to Portland.
I'm really scared. Last night, I couldn't stop crying. I know, I know, it's pathetic, but I'm scared to leave my mom and my brother, despite the crap that goes on in this house, and I'm afraid to leave my friends. I'm going to miss them all, especially the Ellipsis kids.
I've lived with my mom for the last four, almost five years. I've gotten used to living with her instead of my dad, and whenever I've been in Portland before, it was with the knowledge that I'd be coming home again. I'm not sure if Dad's house will start to feel like home, or if I'll feel like I'm away at college and home is back here, where I come from. I'm not trying to say I won't enjoy being in a new place, meeting new people and at a school I actually look forward to attending. But I'm gonna miss Boise. I already miss my mom and my grandparents, and even my doofus of a brother. I'll miss my dogs. They know something is going on; they keep coming and sniffing at me and whining, and won't get out of the way whenever someone tries to walk across the house. The cats know something is going on, too. But the cats are coming with us. The dogs aren't. And I can't very well try to pack my mom up and take her with me, along with my whole house. It's impossible.
But it's not like I'll never see my mom, my brother, or my grandparents again. I know I'll see my friends again, too. I'm guaranteed to see Ellipsis at Sakuracon next April, if not sooner. And I won't fall out of touch with them. Obviously Eric and Mandy manage to stay in touch, and he lives about as far away from Boise as I will (he's in Salt Lake City, Utah). I refuse to let my friendships fall apart. I love my friends too much for that! ♥
That doesn't stop me being scared out of my mind, though. I can't seem to calm down. I'm sure that's normal, but...my mind is going about a thousand miles a second and I feel like time is distorted and rushing past in big gulps, then slowing back down and trickling past. I'm nervous as hell.
But I have to ground myself and stay optimistic.
This one's for you, Ellipsis: OVAAAAAAN! There are still so many things I want to say to you! But the strongest prayer is what it takes to change the world. So this is my prayer: that we'll always be friends, and we'll always have each other. I know it'll come true. If it tries not to, I'll smack it into shape.
"One ending, you know, is really a new beginning. We're not done; our journey will still continue. Don't you think that's true?"